Chilly

Posted on January 2, 2025 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Chilly, Cold, dressing gown, Gas, Heating, Home, January, Life, oil heater, Oven, Time, Winter3 Comments

There was a clear sky this morning and a red hue hung on the Eastern horizon. The day has stayed cold, and consequently the house has been cold. I only put the heating on for a few hours then turned it off. I have now put it back on for the evening, it’s too cold!

My house only has a building on one side, so the other catches sunshine in the daytime and leeches it out at night, so depending where you are in the living room you can get warm, but it’s also draughty due to ill fitting doors and old double glazed windows. Currently I have a plug in oil heater opposite me to surround me with a bit of warmth. I used to put the gas stove on in the kitchen but since that stopped working I don’t really have much more ways to stay warm so I’ll put a dressing gown on soon.

Quiet 1.1.25

Posted on January 1, 2025January 1, 2025 Posted in UncategorizedTagged 1.1.25, Contemplation, Front door., Hiding, Lonely, Poem, Poetry, Relaxing, Rest, Sleep, Thinking, Time, Tired, TVLeave a comment

The front door remained closed

The curtains the same.

No reason to go out,

No wish to speak

Warm enough to sleep

Quiet enough to rest

My heart misses a beat

When a figure passes the door.

Watching TV a while

Reading a book to make me smile

Why bother to move

Just have a coffee, a sandwich

And snooze.

Contemplation or hiding?

You choose.

Happy New Year

Posted on December 31, 2024 Posted in Memories, Sketching, UncategorizedTagged 2025, Art, Artrage, Drawing, Happy New Year, New years eve, Sketcher app, Sketching, Time6 Comments

Digital art with added background.

Wishing you all a lovely 2025. I hope things go well for you all. That things are as peaceful and good as they can be. That no harm comes to you and if you don’t get your hearts desires you will at least feel positive about it.

Another year almost gone…

Posted on December 30, 2024 Posted in Memories, UncategorizedTagged Humour, Life, Melancholy, Memory, Poem, Poetry, Rhyme, Sad, Serious, tempus, Time, Words2 Comments

Time flies, life goes on

Hurt and pain are never gone

Somewhat diminished

But still living here

Coiled round my heart

With everything dear.

Life seen in chunks

Days weeks and months

One year follows another

Some I can smother

Forgetting the pain

But then it rises again.

My life will continue

My future uncertain

Draw back the veil

Open the curtain

On next year’s adventures

And will I have dentures?

(well I couldn’t find a better rhyme…!)

Sketchbook

Posted on December 28, 2024 Posted in Fine Art, Sketching, UncategorizedTagged Art, coherent, Drawing, Life, Parkinsons, Sketching, Time, tremors, understanding myself6 Comments

I need to draw again, but with my Parkinsons it’s so hit and miss. I need to be still enough to stop the tremors transfering onto the pages. Either my drawing hand shakes or the hand holding the Sketchbook shakes, it’s like being a human seismograph! If I had the gumption I would use it to my artistic advantage. I’ve never wanted so much to colour outside the lines but in a coherent, not random way. My life needs to settle down so my mind can too.

Nativity, church window.

Posted on December 25, 2024 Posted in Memories, UncategorizedTagged Age, Art, Bethesda Chapel, christianity, Christmas, Stained glass, Stoke-on trent, TimeLeave a comment

This time of year is called Christmas and this stained glass window is in Bethesda chapel in Hanley, Stoke-on-Trent. It depicts Mary, mother of Jesus. I’m afraid the photo is a bit blurry and small, but it is one of my own pictures.

Around 2000 years ago stories were written of a tale of a child born to a virgin woman. The baby was visited by shepherds who were told to see the him by an angel. He was also visited by three Magi or King’s bringing gifts of gold, Frankincense and Myrrh. His family fled as refugees into Egypt to flee the massacre of innocent baby boys by Herods troops.

In later life, after performing miracles by looking after the poor and healing the sick, he was crucified by the Romans as a type of rebel, or freedom fighter, but he was trying to get people to love one another, care for each other, forgive each other’s sins.

The stories were collected into a book called the Bible and the new Religion called Christianity was born.

Can’t sleep again….

Posted on December 23, 2024 Posted in Cat, Memories, UncategorizedTagged Aches, Ageing, Awake, bedding, Cat, December, Insomnia, morning noise, Santa, Sleeping, TimeLeave a comment

No I’m not waiting for Santa, that’s tomorrow night. I’m just tired out, too tired to sleep, the bedding on my bed is too heavy and presses on my feet. These old legs ache at the knees, so when I turn over they hurt. My hips are starting to hurt too. If I had the money I might treat myself to a reclining chair? But then I worry the cats would get in the mechanism. Oh dear, possibly squashed kitty! I struggle to get up from the bed, I think my arms are not as strong and it pulls on my back as I try to fling my legs out to combat my upper body weight. I’m currently exposing myself to decaffeinated coffee to restore my fluid levels but attempting not to take a stimulant (but as you can see from my writing I’m fully awake). Why do brains do this (keep you awake with plans, worries, anxieties, also hearing my heartbeat and the traffic noise outside, even the cats snore!).

Tonight will soon be this morning, 7am, maybe I should tire myself out with a bit of housework? My coffee is getting cold. Good morning.

Sometimes

Posted on December 22, 2024 Posted in Memories, UncategorizedTagged Character, dailyprompt, dailyprompt-2160, Hubby, Judgement, Life, Memories, Thinking, TimeLeave a comment

Are you a good judge of character?

What’s on the inside isn’t the same as the outside. You might think one thing about a person based on their physical appearance only to find they are completely different to what you expect.

I’d say mostly that I’m a good judge of character. I’ve met many people over my career and my home life, and mostly it’s been OK. But not always, on a couple of occasions I had to give up on friends who tried to split me and my hubby up, I found out one was saying things about me to needle my hubby into leaving me. I realised that the language he was using was in her way of speaking. It was her attitudes that he was spouting. When we talked it through he thankfully understood that. The second situation was a woman that tried to have an affair with him. She was always calling round when I was out. He told me what she was up to, and we ended the friendship.

Other people have fooled me at work, but you cotton on eventually. It can cause heartache when you mistakenly trust people. But you have to live and learn.

Difficult to say…

Posted on December 19, 2024 Posted in Memories, UncategorizedTagged Appointment, dailyprompt, dailyprompt-2155, facing things, Health, memory. Last year, Thinking, this year, Time9 Comments

Is your life today what you pictured a year ago?

A year ago I didn’t think I would go through so much, grief, hospital appointments, memories, loneliness.

Stepping through that year, from there to here, then to now, I had hoped that I would be starting to have better times by now, but the administration of suffering is hard to maintain. One thing after another, a bill here, a repair there, treatments, investigations, infections, tremors, everything. I must have cost the nhs thousands. It’s hard to keep up and also chase things up.

I’m not really where I wanted to be now but hopefully will be in 2025.

Band drawing

Posted on December 14, 2024 Posted in Sketching, UncategorizedTagged #bandofsketchers, Art, Black and white, Boxes, Drawing, Ink pen, Life, Stuff, TimeLeave a comment

Finally drawn (no pun intended) back to #bandofsketchers. Here’s some ‘stuff’ I need to sort out. I must try and do more sketches

Mallaband-Brown

Tag: Time