I want to go

Posted on January 29, 2025 Posted in Memories, UncategorizedTagged Coast, Feelings, Holiday, Loss, Memory, Mountains, Sadness, Seaside, Time, Travel, VisitLeave a comment

To Wales, and the lake district, and Scarborough, and Devon and Dorset. All the places I’ve been on holiday in my life. I want to ESCAPE! Get to beautiful places, see the coast, the mountains, get out of the city.

I can’t get away to the sea and sky. My mind won’t let me, my arms won’t let me, my legs won’t let me. I get worried, I think of things that might happen. I need to have company. Isn’t that strange? When I had my hubby we went everywhere together. Now he’s gone there is no one to reassure me. To make it safe. I’m fed up. Anxious, frustrated, lost, fearful.

Sorry to go on.

No to Orange

Posted on January 20, 2025 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Ceremony, disrespect, Feelings, Orange, Poem, Poetry, Sadness, Thoughts, TV, Vote1 Comment

Something is occurring on UK tv

An orange smarmfest for people to see

So many millions drink the juice

And find their brains are letting loose

Thoughts of selfishness and pain

Their minds are so full of distain

For the poor and the elderly

Veterans too.

No fears in their minds

For those they will hurt

Much rather to vote

For an Orange Jerk.

Not been out since Monday

Posted on November 2, 2024 Posted in Fine Art, UncategorizedTagged Empty, Fed up, Feelings, Food, Green woman, Illness, Painting, Poem, Poetry, staying inside, Stress2 Comments

Not been out, not felt well

Achy bones, tummy pain

Been asleep, tired all day

All my foods been thrown away

I feel like s***, I want to cry

I’m fed up and not feeling spry

I’ve done my best but not been blest

With good health? No!

So I’m stressed!

Don’t ask!

Posted on August 29, 2024 Posted in Memories, UncategorizedTagged dailyprompt, dailyprompt-2045, don't do, Feelings, Humour, Memory, Poem, Poetry, Thinking, Time, WarningsLeave a comment

How are you feeling right now?

I just want to be well

Not feeling low

Tired and fed up

Don’t do this?

Be careful not to…

Avoid salt

Don’t eat cheese

Remember to wrap up warm

Think calm thoughts

Measure your blood pressure

Check your eyes

Don’t eat too much…..

And pray to stay alive each night!

Alone

Posted on January 14, 2024January 14, 2024 Posted in Memories, UncategorizedTagged Alone, Death, emotional, Feelings, Hubby, Life, Loss, Memories, our life together, Time12 Comments

Each morning I look for you

Remember cycling behind you

Along roads we knew

I listen for your key in the door

Your footstep on the stair

The sound of your voice

“come to bed – it’s late!”

The times I didn’t hear you

Switched off and ignored you.

I feel guilty for losing you

Not taking care of you….

A phone call to say you’re Ok

I’ll see you today?

Coming back,

Not gone forever

The mirror is broken

Lost forever

And I’m alone.

Help

Posted on May 10, 2023 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Chaos, Feelings, Grief, grieving, Life, meditating, procrastinating, Relaxing, Sad, Thoughts2 Comments

My life is quite chaotic at the moment. Lots of things to do, plenty of time, but lack of inclination to do things. Procrastinating is my favourite pastime!

Everything is tangled up. I’m trying to organise and assess things, but failing. Thinking and worrying is not helping. I think I need to meditate or do some relaxation. It’s not that I don’t want to do things, but I think I’ve had my head in the sand for so many months, I don’t know how to drag it back out. I know this is self reflection, and I hope its a good thing. Writing it down might give me a push.

Grief has not helped. And now other people I know have died and that has knocked me back. I don’t want to think of the end of things. But I guess we should all make some plans? Sorry this is a bit random, maybe talking will help though.

Bring back bar charts!

Posted on March 7, 2023March 7, 2023 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Anxiety, bar chart, bells and whistles, Display, Feelings, Irritated, Jetpack, Learning, Life, Limerick, Poem, Poetry, preferences, viewing3 Comments

Well I don’t like this swinging line

To other users it might be fine

But irritating I think it is

To see stats displayed like this

It gives me vertigo like I’ve drunk wine!

…….

Oops! They are there! You have to slide the screen sideways!

Doodles

Posted on January 9, 2023 Posted in Sketching, UncategorizedTagged Art, Black ink pen, Creativity, Design, Doodles, Drawing, Feelings, Felt pens, Life, Poem, Poetry, Sketching5 Comments

Sometimes my pen drifts

Across the paper

Black pen and colour

Shading over the lines

Faces and a donkey?

Why not play

Create a design

Learn and develop

Experience and experiment.

Negative

Posted on October 15, 2022 Posted in Sketching, UncategorizedTagged Art, Emotions, Feelings, Life, Loss, Memories, Negative, Photos, Sketchbooks, Sketching, ThinkingLeave a comment

Once I had a drawing (this took thirty minutes), I played with different filters to create different effects. This was using the negative filter on my phone. I have so many sketches and sketch books that I think I ought to store together. I also have thousands of photos on my phone. It’s a way of keeping memories and meaning. But sometimes the photos you really want are the ones you never remembered to tske…

Blues

Posted on September 30, 2022 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Blue, Digitally manipulated, Emotions, Feelings, gratitude, Life, positive thoughts, Words, Writing2 Comments

This is a photo I digitally played with a few months ago. It sums up how I feel at the moment. I do not want to feel like this, honestly.

It’s hard to be positive at the moment, but I am trying. I am still writing three gratitudes a day and they are helping. If you try and think of three small things that give you a little boost each day it seems to lift your spirits slightly. So I’m on day fifty of them. It’s not a solution to the blues, but it does seem to help me.

Mallaband-Brown

Tag: Feelings