I don’t go out much

Posted on April 4, 2023 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Covid 19, dailyprompt, dailyprompt-1896, Death, Fears, Illness, Life, millions, sickbess, Testing2 Comments

How have you adapted to the changes brought on by the Covid-19 pandemic?

I still wear a mask when I go in shops, especially supermarkets. I rarely go out except to try and walk a bit to keep myself fit. Sometimes the world seems like an alien place and I feel like I have walled off the world. I have stopped visiting many friends and don’t like going in pubs or places where there are a lot of people. I still have covid testing kits and I try and remember to test once a week, mainly when I go out to choir practice. I have not had covid19 (yet) and I do hope to continue to avoid it, but I think people are forgetting about it, and really it’s not surprising because it isn’t in the news headlines any more. But millions died and millions more have been disabled by it. I’m not going to put my life at risk if I can help it. Stay safe x

Putin attacks again.

Posted on March 9, 2023 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Death, Fear, Life, missiles, Putin, Russia, Ukraine, violence, War2 Comments

Yet again Putins army has attacked Ukraine. This morning eighty missiles rained down on about ten districts of Ukraine. Hey were mainly in the east of the country but smoke was seen in Kyiv and Oddessa. The attack killed civilians and damaged places like a nuclear power plant at Zaphoriza (not sure of the spelling). The fact Putin thinks this is OK is terrible. It was not that long ago the Chernobyl nuclear power plant, also in the Ukraine? was destroyed in an accident. Radiation spread across the whole of Europe. But Putin doesn’t seem to care. However many civilians, including women and children that he kills and maims he does not want to stop, till he destroys Ukraine.

Warmth

Posted on February 8, 2023 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Cold, Death, earthquake, Freezing, Heat, Syria, Temperature, tragedies, Turkey, Ukraine, War, Warmth2 Comments

Warmth is essential to life, not excessive heat, but enough so you are able to be comfortable without shivering or having to wear outside clothes indoors. When I see the state that people in Turkey and Syria and also Ukraine are having to live in, it makes me so thankful for my circumstances. Earthquakes and Wars don’t spare anyone. Freezing winter temperatures are lethal if you don’t have shelter and warmth.

If you are aware of any charities that are collecting for these tragedies please consider donating to them. Compassion is so important.

My sister, Farewell

Posted on November 16, 2022November 16, 2022 Posted in UncategorizedTagged bereavement, Death, Family, Life, Loss, Memories, regret, Sad, Sadness, Sister, ThinkingLeave a comment

It’s social media so I’m not sharing her whole face or naming her. But she had a good Farewell yesterday, kind words and thoughts. We seperated in late teenage hood as I left home to go to college. We went in different directions, I think she had a more romantic view of life and she had an almost fairy tale history (married with two children). I won’t talk much about her world, I don’t want to share too much personal information. We were seperated by many miles, but the bond was still there. I wish we had been closer and visited more. Bereavement is full of regret. I do regret, but I don’t feel guilty.

Twins again

Posted on November 13, 2022November 13, 2022 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Death, fire alarm, Life, Memory, Sadness, Thought, Time, Twins, Universe2 Comments

Twins on the TV, twins in conversations, twins on the Internet. It’s like the universe knows what’s going on, and bereavement too, so sad that there are so many loses. Each one gouges another piece from my heart. The smoke alarm went off a couple of mornings ago. I want cooking and there are no sockets or electrical equipment near to it. The only thing I could think of was to check the Internet. False alarms are caused by high humidity or maybe a small spider sneaking inside the alarm! Or my mind telling me my sister is haunting me? I’d rather see her in a dream, to properly say goodbye. I’m sad, but I have to accept what has happened.

Going…

Posted on November 4, 2022 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Autumn, Brown, Death, Fall, fallen, Gold, Leaves, Life, Poem, Poetry, Rhyme, YellowLeave a comment

Yellow, gold and brown

All the leaves fall down

Fallen in a mound

As the wind whirls round

Rain streaks the windows

As the wild storm blows

Hail mixed into icy rain

Knocks more leaves down again

Time has ended for them now

Rotten, crumbled, so they go.

I can’t talk

Posted on September 23, 2022September 23, 2022 Posted in UncategorizedTagged coping, Death, Hidden, Home, Life, no energy, Sadness, strategy, Stress, StruggleLeave a comment

There’s people I need to speak to, but as the days go on I get less likely to reach out. Its like I’m encapsulating myself against the whole world. Retreating into myself, hiding away? So nothing else can hurt me. Keeping busy where I have to, but really all I want is to put my head under the covers and escape from the world. Self protection, I hope it’s not selfishness. I don’t know if I will feel better soon. Am I being lazy? No, definitely not. Just torn apart.

Up and down

Posted on September 22, 2022 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Death, Learning, Life, Loss, Memory, Sadness, Thinking, turmoil, Understanding?, up and downLeave a comment

At the moment I’m up and down. One minute trying to plan things, the next remembering what has happened. Disbelief is my main emotion. That and loss. I feel like writing things down is helping a bit, so I’m here, blogging and sharing my thoughts. I hope that’s OK for people. I’m gradually working things out, grateful that I have hubby, friends and family there for support. When you lose a relative it’s a shock. I have cried, I will cry again, how long for, I don’t know. Its turmoil and chaos sometimes, then I calm down for a while. X

And still it goes on.

Posted on September 20, 2022 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Death, don't forget, Evil, Life, Putin, Russia, Sadness, terror, torture, Ukraine, WarLeave a comment

On 24th of February this year Vladimir Putin said he didn’t want to annex parts of Ukraine 🇺🇦, and yet now he’s trying to set up referendums to get the areas he’s taken over to vote to be absorbed into Russia. He can then threaten Ukraine more if they try and take those areas back.

Meanwhile victims of Russias torture and killing are being found in the areas in the North East of Ukraine that have been liberated. Innocent civilians that had their hands bound behind their back and were shot in the head. Or the survivors that were beaten or electrocuted. The loss that they and their relatives must feel must far outweigh any normal grieving? The world is awful. May this terrible war end soon.

Halved

Posted on September 19, 2022September 19, 2022 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Death, Earth, Gone, Life, Memories, Missing, Moon, Poem, Poetry, Sadness, Sun, Thoughts, Time, WordsLeave a comment

My sun has gone out

The moon has split in half

My world is darkened

The loss of a relative

Guts your soul

Don’t scream

Don’t cry

Hold it together

For you

For everyone else

But it’s hard to take.

Mallaband-Brown

Tag: Death