Quiet day

Posted on December 28, 2023 Posted in UncategorizedTagged avoiding people, Computer, computer game, Game, Internet, Life, Living, mindless, Reality, Time2 Comments

I woke up from a nightmare where I’d lost my house keys and couldn’t get back in the house. I decided to have a quiet day. I haven’t been online much today. I decided to stay off the computer and basically played a game on my phone all day. It was diverting and took my mind off things. But I think I will delete the game. It’s a mindless matching hexagons game. It’s frustrating and fun at the same time. But half the time is t taken up by adverts. I tried to get past them as quickly as I could but they are intensely irritating and there’s no way I’m paying to avoid them. So I’m back to reality again….

Love

Posted on April 4, 2023 Posted in UncategorizedTagged fleeting, fondness, Happy, Life, Living, Love, Luck, Memory, Poem, Poetry, Sad, TimeLeave a comment

Love writes a story

A thread in your life

It may be long,

Or short.

It may only exist in your mind

A fleeting idea

Gone in seconds

Or love might

Last a lifetime

Tie your tongue,

Close your eyes

Ignore reality

Hold you tight

Love can be

Wonderful or wicked.

I am lucky

To love.

Lovebirds

Posted on November 14, 2022 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Birds, Change, Colours, Daylight, Life, Living, Love, love birds, poetic, Thinking, TimeLeave a comment

Leave the nest and find a partner, lovebirds dance and coo. Symbol of love, kissing turtle doves. Blue birds fly over white cliffs, a timeless memory caught in glass. Does the sunlight shine through and cast flitting shadows, flying across the room so slowly and gradually, a slow motion, stop and go motion, drift of love. Like an orbit around the sun celebrated in a year but played out in a day. Background colours changing fron bright white to rose to purple and blurred blue.

View

Posted on October 5, 2022 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Countryside, Dreaming, House, Industry, Living, my home, reflecting, Sea, View, WindowLeave a comment

Looking out of our house, I can see gardens on the side and rear of the house, but a grey factory building in front. I wish we had a view of the sea or countryside. The road in front of our house is on a steep hill, and quite often cars roar up and down it, ambulances rush by with sirens blaring, or motorbikes speed up, exhausts popping and banging. The hill is one of the steepest in the area and seems sometimes to be a racetrack! Oh to see a yatch in the distance, sails catching the rising or setting sun. That would be magical.

Illness

Posted on December 3, 2021 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Fed up, Frustrated, Hand, Health, Illness, Life, Living, NHS, no fun, Shaking, Tablets2 Comments

My body is literally a pain. From recent problems to chronic health issues, I have to admit things are mounting up. I want to get to 100 when Halleys Comet is due to be back in our skies, but I’m getting fed up. I think my mind is fine but things keep going wrong. Must be my genetic makeup. Fingers crossed I don’t get anything else. At least one thing I have is determination. I don’t easily give up. Here’s another lot of tablets? Fine, thank you. I am thankful for the NHS, I don’t know how I would cope without it!

Green man?

Posted on July 27, 2020 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Blogging, Environment, Flowers, Green man, Life, Living, Nature, Plants, Poem, PoetryLeave a comment

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I create, then wither

I grow and then die.

You breathe my air,

you eat my leaves

you take my fruit.

I let you…

But I am green,

I am life

Chlorophyll,

Xanthophyll,

Phloem,

Xylem,

I nourish.

You damage me at your peril.

I am the green man.

When did I become captain sensible?

Posted on July 16, 2020July 16, 2020 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Blogging, Caring, Hubby, Illness, Life, Living, Mental health, Sensible, Thought, Time6 Comments

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I’d like to be silly, daft, funny, have a laugh. But recently I’ve had to become, as my hubby calls me ‘ captain sensible’.

The thing is I’m his carer. I don’t like thinking about it but he has mental health issues and I have to keep a level head to keep him safe. But I don’t like it. I have to negotiate with him when he has manic ideas. I have to think through what he can do. I sometimes feel like a jailer. And yet I’m being sensible. I don’t think he should go and find a newt and put it in the pond, or buy another three bicycles to add to his collection of ten he already has. Or come home with another tree for our wooded garden. Some things are simple negotiation. Others are confusing. He buys ornaments we don’t need. He spends money in one particular shop on stuff that’s basically junk. But he’s happy. But they must see him coming… I worry about some of the things he declares he’s going to do. I won’t discuss them here. I can’t describe the anxiety he goes through every day, over things I would call trivial. I try and hold it all together and then live my life on top of that..

I miss them…

Posted on February 5, 2020February 5, 2020 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Closed accounts, Death, Died, Facebook, Gone, Left, Life, Living, Memories, Missing, Passed away, Thinking, Thought, WordPress2 Comments

One if the worst things about the Internet is when people disappear and you don’t know where they have gone.

I have ‘lost’ a few people here recently. Perhaps it’s a new year and they have cancelled their membership, or decided blogging isn’t for them. Some of them had become friends, or I’d invested some time in reading their blogs. Some explained that this wasn’t working and they were going, others just disappeared. I can’t help saying I miss them. One person passed away. I knew she had been ill and I was sad to find out she was gone. At least there was a message put on her page to say she had died. I could grieve. But sometimes there is nothing, they become ghosts in my memory, sitting there, with no explanation. Then there are people who’s pages on Facebook are still open despite having died two or three years ago. Each time I see their faces on my friends list I feel sorrow, and yet it would feel wrong to ‘unfollow’ them. What to do. The etiquette of the Internet.. We need to learn.

Got to paint

Posted on September 23, 2019 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Acrylic on canvas, Art, Artist, Blogging, Design, Holly and Ivy, Life, Living, PaintingLeave a comment

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I’ve got to get on and paint. I’ve been distracted recently. I’m going to get my paints and brushes out tomorrow.

This is a close up of my Holly and Ivy painting that I started a couple of weeks ago.

We live in a world where art can be worth millions or pence, where there is no set price for anything. If you buy a TV they generally are a certain amount of money. If you do a painting of a TV then it seems to depend on who painted it, how well known they are. Whether there is a resale value. It also seems to depend on scarcity and if the person is alive or dead when generally the art is worth more. It’s a funny old world.

Anyway all that said I think art is important and I will keep making it.

Titchy theatre

Posted on March 31, 2019March 31, 2019 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Fun, Gazebos, Life, Living, Micro theatre, Over the road, TheatreLeave a comment

Today we went to the Harpers Titchy Theatreup at the village hall. We went to listen to short plays written by about 17 people (including my partner and myself). The stories were varied and ranged from subjects about flying a plane to Lancashire in 1963. The name was chosen for a gentleman who passed away last year.

The idea was to write on about two pages of a4 paper. A play or poem to be read by up to 3 or 4 people.

My stories were about monsters and overhearing a conversation. My partners was about childhood memories.

I don’t have the originals because they were hand written and had to be typed up. When I get them back I will copy them to this site.

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Tag: Living