Mourning and bereavement

Posted on September 20, 2022 Posted in UncategorizedTagged bereavement, coping, feeling, Healing, Learning, Sad, Sleep, Talking, Time, Tired, Upset4 Comments

When you lose someone it is complex and confusing. Especially when it is a sudden event. First there is disbelief, and that keeps flooding back. I keep wanting to talk to the person who is gone. Then I swear at them! Angry with them. Asking why did it happen? It’s unbelievable and shattering. Everything is on hold, I can’t decide what to do for the best. I’ve talked to lots of people, shared some of my feelings. I hope that’s the right thing to do. Life seems bad at the moment but at least I’m still trying to cope. Sleep is another problem. If you see me here late at night I might just be trying to take my mind off things.

My writings awful

Posted on November 12, 2021 Posted in UncategorizedTagged crossword, Healing, Hurt, Illness, Life, Pain, Photo, Thinking, Thumb, Time, wrist, Writing2 Comments

I am struggling to write since I hurt my wrist. If I hold a pen I get sharp pains shooting down from my thumb. The pressure I have to press down with is also making it hurt.

I’ve tried getting in the doctors but can’t get an appointment. I will try again. I looked the symptoms up on the Internet (not a good idea), I have an idea what might be causing it, but self diagnosis is not a good thing. I might be minimising or catastrophising…. Life is strange and interesting and can be confusing.

He’s better

Posted on October 15, 2021October 15, 2021 Posted in Cat, UncategorizedTagged Black and white cat, Cat, cats eye, eye drops, Going out, Healing, Time, Tuxedo cat4 Comments

He’s better, his eye will never completely heal but he can finally go out again for the first time in weeks.

I’m still keeping him in at night, especially now the nights are getting dark earlier. It’s also getting colder at night. There may be a frost in Scotland tonight.

But that means he can carry on recovering without hurting himself. Fingers crossed he will get even better. X

Flat

Posted on October 11, 2021 Posted in Sketching, UncategorizedTagged Down, Flat, Healing, Life, lost opportunity, Poem, Poetry, Thinking, Time, two dimensionsLeave a comment

I feel flat

Flattened

Stuck at the bottom

Of a valley

No way to climb up.

Flat as a pancake

Flat as a skillet

Flat as a newspaper

Ironed flat

Two dimensions

Not three

Did I mention?

I feel flat

Deflated

All my bubbles

Burst…

Ouch

Posted on September 29, 2021 Posted in UncategorizedTagged calf, Exercise, Healing, Hurt, injury, mend, Pain, pain relief gel, Pulled muscle?, Time6 Comments

Fed up with waiting for my pulled calf muscle to mend. I was trying to get my steps in, inside the house but I’ve had to give that up, it hurt too much. I’m trying to keep moving as much as I can. I still can’t climb upstairs or get in the bath for a shower. I’m taking pain killers and the painkilling gel I got from the doctors but am sleeping badly on the settee. Hubby has been so helpful and caring. I just want to be mobile again. Got to take the cat to the vets again on Friday. Last week a taxi didn’t turn up so I drove us there in second gear! I hope I don’t have to do that again. I’m going to be alright and people have helped.

I wish I knew how long this was going to take. I didn’t actually have a doctors appointment, I just told the receptionist what I’d done and then she rang back and told me there was a prescription waiting for me at the pharmacy. I am a bit tired and fed up.

Mending leg

Posted on September 22, 2021 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Ache, calf, College, Fed up, Healing, Learning, Leg, Recovery, Time2 Comments

I’m still stuck downstairs in our little house but I have managed to get painkillers and pain relief gel from my doctors. Hopefully I will be upstairs soon but I tried the bottom step today. Hurts too much. Computer is upstairs…I still can’t do my college work. I’m not moaning but….. I’m getting more and more tired and fed up. The cat escaping didn’t help!

Cat again

Posted on September 22, 2021 Posted in Sketching, UncategorizedTagged Art, Cat, Claws, Drawing, escaped, Healing, Hearts, Purple, Sketching, vets, vets appointmentLeave a comment

Cat made up of tiny purple hearts.

He looks on happily

Proud and smug

He’s the boss

Whiskered and neat

Pure white feet

Sneaked out today

Lying in the neighbours yard

In the bright, late summer sun.

Wouldn’t come when called.

Puncture wounds?

In hubby’s arms

Cats claws leave scars

But he is safe.

Vets bill again

Tomorrow.

Waiting

Posted on September 6, 2021 Posted in Cat, UncategorizedTagged Black and white cat, Cat, Healing, Health, Love, Poem, Poetry, Time, Tuxedo catLeave a comment

He’s getting better

And I’m waiting.

For when his eye is better

Than it is now

For when his mouth has healed.

For when his fur is clean.

White as snow and black as charcoal.

Happy again, healthy and healed.

Tired

Posted on October 18, 2020 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Covid, Healing, Ill, Life, Pandemic blues, Stress, Time, Tired, Worry2 Comments

A month of tonsillitis has knocked me sideways, it’s making my ears whoosh! I am sort of over it but it keeps coming back. I’m trying to ignore it. I think I’m just run down from stress from worry because of covid19. I think it’s just a matter of time before I get over it, but I’m tense and it weighs on me. I’m not the most traveled person in the world, but when you’re not allowed to go to places like visiting relatives. Then it’s hard to feel happy. Oh well. Another day done, another day closer to the end of this damn pandemic I suppose.

Mallaband-Brown

Tag: Healing