Jetpack installed!

Posted on March 7, 2023March 7, 2023 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Anxiety, Apps, catastrophising, Delete, Jetpack, Memory, New, Sad, Thinking, uninstalling, Why?, WordPress, Worried3 Comments

Installing jetpack was OK but sorting my phone storage out first was the problem. I felt like I was launching my phone at the moon, without a rocket to take it. I knew I would need to free up space as currently my phone is 85% full. But what to uninstall? Which apps are crucial to my phone running properly and which could I delete? I randomly chose a few I rarely use. I still need to upgrade my memory but my phone shop didn’t have the right chip in and needs to order them in. So my dilemma (and I was catastrophising I think) was would things work after I did it. Well clearly it did, but jetpack took a while to install, probably due to the amount of data it had to bring over.

Well I’ve done it. I don’t like the look of it. That’s just because I’m used to the old site. I felt sad uninstalling WordPress, it feels like I have cut ties with it. It’s strange how you become invested in something so ephemeral as a computer app. I hope I get used to this. X

Masks

Posted on December 14, 2022 Posted in Sketching, UncategorizedTagged Cold, Cough, Covid, feeling a bit rough, Mask, rehersal, sniffles, Sore throat, winter bug, Worried1 Comment

I went into a shop tonight, but I’d forgotten to take a mask with me. I felt naked as I walked around. Every cough or sneeze made me jump! The trouble is for the last few nights I’ve been at rehersals and I’ve trusted everyone is covid free. Now I’ve started with a bit of a cough and a sore throat. I will do a covid test in the morning and check. I have to say I’m quite worried. I hope it’s just a sniffle. I’ve had all my jabs, so I hope if it is I will be OK.

Cat ‘escaped’ last night

Posted on September 30, 2021 Posted in Cat, UncategorizedTagged Black and white cat, Caring, Cat, escaped, Fun, Rest, Tired, Tuxedo cat, vets, Worried2 Comments

My black and white cat is very good at hiding. He’s not allowed out because he’s having treatment for his eye. It does mean that I have to let the other two out carefully. We are keeping the door between the kitchen and backdoor closed. Except when hubby forgets. Last night he was going to bed. I asked him to check the cat was upstairs. He shouted down he wasn’t (he’s got a couple of good hiding places). So hubby went out in the rain to see if he could see the cat. I stood and called at the back door. Hubby came back, no sign. But the cat usually comes when I call. I promised to whistle and shout for him every hour or so to see if he would come back. But all that happened was the other two cats popped in and out. After hours of not sleeping, but going to the back door regularly and calling and rattling food… At five thirty am he CAME DOWNSTAIRS! ate some cat food and fell asleep on top of the settee and I could finally rest!

Suspisions

Posted on July 15, 2021July 15, 2021 Posted in UncategorizedTagged letting people know, Motorbike, Neighbourhood watch, Suspicious, suspisions, theft, walking stick, warning, Worried12 Comments

I was writing about a budgie earlier and forgot to post what happened this evening.

I posted this information on the local neighbourhood watch page…..
Watch out for someone looking over gates into gardens…
I was watching TV when I saw, through the side window, a man leaning over our gate and looking into our garden. He was white, probably in his forties, with dark balding hair and about Six feet tall, wearing a dark shirt and trousers.
My husband went after him and caught up with him up the hill. He asked what he was looking at and the man said he’d been looking at my husbands new motorbike (it’s very old and tatty) because his sons Honda motorbike had recently been stolen. He apologised and then they spotted the budgie, (another story). BUT, we have no proof that the man was telling the truth, so I’ve drawn the short straw to stay up and listen out.
And the motorbike is chained with two chains to a ground anchor, the gate is padlocked and chained. So the man hadn’t better bother to come back!
Now! Someone or something has knocked over the milk bottles by our gate so I took a walking stick with me opened the front door and shouted ‘what you doing’ to the street in general. Looked up and down, can’t see anyone. After the motorbike theft in March I’m a bit nervous!

Doodled faces

Posted on June 6, 2021 Posted in Sketching, UncategorizedTagged Art, Artrage oils, Crowd, Drawing, Faces, Life, Photodirector, Sketching, Thinking, WorriedLeave a comment

Artrage oils and photodirector used to make these slightly worried faces in a crowd. Perhaps I should have given one of them a mask? They certainly feel crammed together. And what are they watching? Why are they there? Is it something pleasant or unpleasant? Who can say. From the depths of my mind to the page. I sometimes don’t know what’s coming!

The inevitable

Posted on May 31, 2021May 31, 2021 Posted in Cat, Sketching, UncategorizedTagged Black and white cat, Cat flap, Cats, escapes, freedom, Garden, Learning, returned, Safety, time to go, Tuxedo cat, WorriedLeave a comment

Sigh, it happened. Our intrepid outdoor cat has led my two indoor cats out into the great big green world of our garden. He is a bit of a cat burglar. Strong claws had forced the cat flap mechanism round so that the flap opened both ways. He must have come in for food overnight then forced it to get out. His Foster brother and sister were both ‘not in the house’ when I got up. That deafening silence that indicates ‘absence of cat’.

All I could do was call and whistle. Five minutes later, outdoor cat and Foster sister came in through the open door. Five minutes after that, Foster brother saunter up. You’ve been out I say, who me? He stares in innocence. I open the cat flap for him. No he wants the door opening. Finally they breakfast…. Now they are sitting tapping the cat flap again! Argh… Inevitable!

In a bubble

Posted on August 16, 2020August 16, 2020 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Blogging, Covid, Health, In a bubble, Life, Nervous, Shielding, Stay safe, Tense, Thinking, Thought, Worried8 Comments

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I’m tense all the time. My hubby went out walking today with some friends and I stayed in ostensibly to get some college work done but really I want to keep away from possible infection. I don’t like it though. I’m constantly tense. I get pains in my shoulders from holding them tight all the time. I’ve tried to book some physio because I’m getting pain from a pinched nerve in my arm and shoulder… But there are no free appointments. Hubby says he will pay, but I’d rather trust the NHS than go private?

So the tension continues. I’ve even found myself rocking backwards and forwards to comfort myself. I don’t think I’m depressed just physically reacting to the pandemic. Stay safe everyone.

Waiting…

Posted on July 7, 2020 Posted in Cat, UncategorizedTagged Appointment, Cat, Ill cat, Nervous, Poem, Poetry, Time, vets, Waiting, WorriedLeave a comment

Waiting for the phone to ring,

Waiting for the vet to call.

What will be the scan result?

Will he be on medication?

Worried, waiting, hoping, aching.

Shall I ring, or shall I wait?

Will the treatment be too late?

Nervous, thinking, imagined perils.

Cat must be OK, I prey.

Kitten

Posted on July 6, 2020 Posted in Cat, UncategorizedTagged Appointment, Cats, Kitten, Medication, Memories, Rehoming, Thoughts, vets, Worried2 Comments

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One of my cats kittens from three years ago, popped up on my Facebook page a few weeks ago. She was rehomed with her sister and they are grown up and happy. We are thinking about taking in another adult stray cat, but he needs checking over at the vets, and my male cat is going to the vets for treatment in the morning. Life is complicated. Then if my cat is OK I need to find out about treatment, tablets, worst case scenario.

Oh dear.

Tomorrow is another day

Posted on June 7, 2020June 7, 2020 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Blogging, Life, Prevaricate, Rest, Sleep, Thinking, Tired, Tomorrow, World, WorriedLeave a comment

I will wait for the sun to rise and try and think of tomorrow as a new day, a different day.

I’m thinking about what I need to do, trying not to prevaricate, not to stick my head in the sand. In this time of lockdown it’s almost too easy to turn and face the wall and not let the world invade. So I shall sleep and try not to wake too early.

I hope that everyone out there in the big world is OK. Safe, as happy as they can be. Look after yourselves.

Mallaband-Brown

Tag: Worried