Snowdrops

Posted on February 25, 2024 Posted in Memories, UncategorizedTagged Cold, Growing, Health, Rode hall, snowbells, Snowdrops, Spring, Staffordshire, Time, Tired, Visit, WalkLeave a comment

I went with a friend to Rode Hall today to take a look at the snowdrop walk, an annual event where people can walk round and see snowdrops growing by the lake and in the woods. Sadly we are at the end of the snowdrop season so a lot of them have finished flowering. But it was good to get out.

I’ve been hiding away recently. I don’t like driving very far as my health has deteriorated. But going out with a friend made me feel safer. I hung onto her on the slippy muddy bits. I feel like I’m teetering forward all the time. My balance is off, but I managed to bend down and take a photo of the snowdrops (galanthus ?) I know Rode Hall has lots of varieties of snowdrops and snowbells?

I got home and fell asleep, I was so tired, but I’m glad I went. Spring is on its way.

Rode Hall is off the A34 Road near Scholar Green in Staffordshire.

Last night..

Posted on January 9, 2024 Posted in Cat, UncategorizedTagged Asleep, Black and white cat, Cat, Insomnia, Poem, Poetry, Sleepless, third night, Tired, Tuxedo cat2 Comments

The cats slept but I didn’t.

Little snores kept me awake.

I don’t like the dark

Or the cold

Being on my own.

One cat gets under the covers

Claws out, poddling me

It’s sweet but

Then she gets too hot

Leaping out and away.

I tried reading

But I ached,

My mind raced

Too tired to sleep now.

Third night this week….

Dawn

Posted on January 7, 2024 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Insomnia, Life, Night, Pain, Poem, Poetry, regret, Sadness, Sleep, Thoughts, Time, Tired1 Comment

Sky lightens

Black to blue

To greys

Clouded

My mind spins

Thoughts orbit

Won’t stay still

Words babble

Muddle,

Tired and befuddled

Where is sleep?

Oh for a good night’s sleep

Posted on January 3, 2024 Posted in Uncategorized, Sketching, CatTagged Art, Drawing, Light, Sleep, Cats, Life, Tired, Sleepless, Radio, ArtRage app, yawning2 Comments

Distractions don’t work, I’m dreading the night, time for my mind to run riot. Put the radio on low? I just have to listen. I can’t stop myself. It’s too dark so I put the light on to feel safer. The cats jump on the bed but then want attention. My head spins. My circadian rythms are all over the place. A cup of cocoa doesnt work. Yawning now. 8.30am another sleepless night.

Insomnia yet again

Posted on December 27, 2023 Posted in Cat, Memories, UncategorizedTagged Bike, Black and white cat, Cat, Cocoa, Cycling, Hills, Hubby, Insomnia, Memory, tandem, Tired6 Comments

Sleeping is a issue yet again. I’m either too cold or too hot. Lost without my hubby who passed away three weeks ago. I really have a heavy heart. I just spent the last hour or so remembering things we did in the past. Going for bike or tandem rides when we were younger. The feeling of almost flying along, racing each other down hills (I was always more cautious). How he took in a stray cat a few years ago that had come limping into our garden, it turned out to have been abandoned by it’s owner. That cat is now sleeping on hubbys bodywarmer. I think it misses him as much as I do. It’s almost 5am. Going to make a cocoa.

Covid? still got it?

Posted on December 20, 2023December 20, 2023 Posted in UncategorizedTagged corona virus, Covid, Dizzy, hot and cold, Illness, Positive, ruuny nose, Sick, Sore throat, Test, Tired2 Comments

I feel rough so I did another covid test. It’s positive again. I managed to avoid it for all the years it’s been around. I think I’ve just been unlucky and seen too many people recently. I really feel bad incase I’ve passed it on to others. According to the government you don’t have to self isolate any more, but why would I not protect my friends and family?

Sore throat, dizzy, runny nose, aches, hot and cold shivers. I hate it, I don’t need it. I want to be better. I’ve got things I need to do but I have to be patient. It’s very frustrating, and the longer things get left the less I want to do them.

Someone told me if it’s just one line even if it’s the C line it’s negative? Googled it and apparently you have to have both lines to be positive. I will test again in the morning but might be good news. X

Missing mystery

Posted on December 20, 2023 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Book, Cadviael, Lost, Mystery, Night, perplexed, Sleep, Thinking, Tired, Worried2 Comments

I’m a little perplexed. I’ve been reading a, Brother Cadviael book over the past few nights, to take my mind off things. They are a series of mediaeval murder mysteries that I like. So when I came to bed I thought it would be waiting for me, but it isn’t. I was hot and bothered last night, so it might have fallen on the floor by the bed, but I can’t see it. I also went into the other room this morning but it’s not there either.

Things go missing sometimes, and generally that’s not a problem. I sometimes think there are borrowers in the house ( like the children’s book, with characters called Arrietty and Pod?). But at the moment I just want my book back. It’s out of place, out of possession and position. It’s bugging me. So I’m writing this as another distraction. Mysterious and also frustrating. I guess I will have to give up and go to sleep….

No presents

Posted on December 18, 2023 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Christmas, Gone, Grief, Life, Mantlepiece, Poem, Poetry, Sadness, stockings, Tired, tradition2 Comments

No presents hanging in stockings

No orange in the toe of the sock

There’s no chocolate or dolls

No perfume, or jigsaw puzzle

Sympathy cards replace Christmas ones.

The poinsettia is still in the shop

Your present has gone to a friend

We won’t open one each before breakfast

Old traditions wrung out

New ones yet to start.

Meanwhile I wait for snow or reindeer

Or Christian meditation and carols.

Who knows what happens next.

Shrodingers Cat has more idea

Of the future than I do.

When things get worse

Posted on December 18, 2023December 18, 2023 Posted in UncategorizedTagged bad karma, Covid, hot and bothered, Ill, Runny nose, Sad, Sore throat, Swearwords, Tired4 Comments

Covid! I have avoided it for years. Now I’m hot and bothered sore tbroat, sniffles, bad head cold symptoms, dizzy, tired. But I didn’t realise till a friend said she had it. So I hunted down an old test kit. Lol and behold…. I’m gutted and worried. Wish me luck.

Look who’s on the bed

Posted on November 20, 2023 Posted in Cat, UncategorizedTagged Bed, Black and white cat, Cat, Duvet, Paws, Purring, Sleep, Tired, Tuxedo cat2 Comments

A night visitor, all prowl worn out, purring gently, wants love. Left me no room while I was out. Now do I move him or let him stay? Gentle purring makes that decision easy.

Mallaband-Brown

Tag: Tired