Lovely afternoon

Posted on July 23, 2023 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Cajun, Friends, Life, Memory, Music, skiffle, the boat band, Time, trombone, west-indies2 Comments

We went out for an afternoon at the local pub to see “the boat band” playing cajun, west-indies and skiffle music. We had a great time. Actually saw a lot of friends and really enjoyed the lively music.

I got upset when someone asked about my sister. I started to explain, then started to cry, so had to tell my friend that I couldn’t talk about it. I don’t like how to feel but they were very understanding.

What I really enjoyed was the trombone playing in “Just a closer walk with thee”, really uplifting and energetic. Singing and music has a good effect on me mentally. I’m glad we went. After years of seeing hardly anyone it’s shocking to think how much time and friendships have been lost.

I wish I could talk to her

Posted on July 22, 2023 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Advice, Life, Loss, Memory, Mother, Mourning, Pain, regret, Sadness, Sister, Thinking2 Comments

I wish I could speak to my mother, my sister, but they are gone. If there was a phone line, a way to communicate. Just to say hello. To get some comfort. To just say a few words and get some response. It’s hard to lose people, it leaves such an empty space. Even when I’m busy I think of them. I thought I would learn to cope, and I have to some extent, but the older you get it seems the more the regret grows (at least for me). Sadness, regret, pain, loss, mourning, they all crowd in on me sometimes.

What’s in a name?

Posted on July 20, 2023 Posted in Sketching, UncategorizedTagged Art, Death, Hurt, Life, Lost, Memory, Name, Poem, Poetry, reminded, Sadness, TimeLeave a comment

I keep meeting her name

I see someone

They have her name

Each one a gut wrench

Bullet to my heart

Didn’t know how many

People I know

Had her name.

She’s gone,

But I’m reminded

Constantly

Surge of sadness

Bumps into my mind

Almost daily.

Goodbye forever

Twin.

Cats!

Posted on July 19, 2023 Posted in Cat, UncategorizedTagged Black and white cat, Cat, dailyprompt, dailyprompt-2002, Dog, Life, Love, Memory, special cat, Thinking, Time, Tuxedo cat7 Comments

Dogs or cats?

Sorry, I’ve always loved cats, I’ve had cats since I was a child. We never had room for a dog, I don’t think my parents had the time to walk one while they were looking after all of us children.

Cats always seem aloof, but once you get one, and start to understand it they can be very loving. I used to whistle a little tune to get our cats to come home. I’d do it when they were due to be fed, or at bed time, and I suppose they understood the reason behind the whistle so they would come. So cats can be trained. I had one which would jump from one gate post to another when I tapped the post and whistled. She was very special and liked climbing up on my shoulder and having a little ride around the house or garden.

Don’t get me wrong though, I do like dogs, it’s just that when you go out to work all day it seems cruel to leave them shut in the house or tied up in a garden. At least cats can use cat flaps and enjoy independence. And I know you can get dogflaps but they look like a burglar could get in through them…

Also, thinking about cats, I think they are not as expensive to look after, although when you have multiple cats it’s not cheap. Maybe one day if we suddenly have lots of money I might get a dog.

Apologies to dog lovers. X

Chess anyone?

Posted on July 19, 2023 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Black and white, check, checkmate, chequer board, Chess, Life, Memory, Play, Time5 Comments

Today I played chess for the first time in ten years. My friend has acquired a chess set, so we sat in a shady spot by a cafe and had a few games.

The result was 2 games to her 1 to me. Then I found out she’d been in a chess club at school and had been champion in one year! So I didn’t do too badly. I’m not trained so I made some surprising moves where she could see I should have done a different move. But it was fun.

We had a quick go at drafts but didn’t remember the rules. Anyway we will have another game in a few weeks. I need to find a set to practice. Hubby used to be good at it so we might play a game or two. Good for exercising the brain.

Ten certainties?

Posted on July 16, 2023July 16, 2023 Posted in UncategorizedTagged 10 thoughts, Cats, dailyprompt, dailyprompt-1999, Earth, facts, Humour, Ideas, Memory, Sun, Thinking6 Comments

List 10 things you know to be absolutely certain.

Is this an exam?

1. The Earth is an oblate spheroid. That is it’s almost a sphere but it is fatter around the equator because of its spin.

2. Crisps are crunchy and made of potatoes that have been thinly sliced and fried (who said these had to be serious? ).

3. The Sun is approximately 93 million miles away from the Earth. But because the Earth’s orbit is an ellipse it has times when it is slightly nearer, and times when it is slightly further away.

4. Water freezes at 0°Celsius. I don’t know if it’s the same in Fahrenheit.

5. Too much sugar and salt is bad for you. But you need some to maintain your electrolyte balance.

6. Halleys comet comes back into the inner solar system every 76 years, it’s next due in the 2060’s (I’ve forgotten the exact year)

7. Cats don’t have 9 lives, they just pretend!

8. I know for a fact that I don’t get enough sleep!

9. Green plants absorb all the other colours and reflect green? I think.. I’ve forgotten the physics behind it though.

10. Singing really can help your mental health. It’s good for breathing too.

Well those were a few random (and probably useless) facts. I tend to pick up a lot of ideas, and as I have a retentive memory I hold onto facts that are not much use to anyone.

Tangled

Posted on July 16, 2023July 16, 2023 Posted in Sketching, UncategorizedTagged Art, Drawing, Grief, Life, Memory, Molecules, procrastinating, Sad, Sketching, Time2 Comments

A drawing from a while ago. It was called molecules. I was trying to find an image that describes my tangled brain. I think I’m OK, then I don’t know. I’m trying to do things, but I’m tied up inside a cotton sack, trying to find the way out.

Am I being dramatic? Perhaps, I have lots of thoughts about what I want to do, but the procrastination gets me all the time. The older I get, the less enthusiasm I have. Sorry, its just one of those nights. I’m watching a sad film and it’s getting to me. I sometimes feel time is running out. Grief is a tight knot. Like a molecule, twisting and turning. Time for some rest perhaps…… I’ll be OK….

Security

Posted on July 15, 2023 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Adventure?, Bike, Cycling, dailyprompt, dailyprompt-1998, Fun, Life, Memory, Safety, Security, tandem, Thought5 Comments

Are you seeking security or adventure?

At my age I prefer security. I used to like adventure, but I’ve grown out of it!

When I was young we used to cycle all over the country, riding a bike or a tandem for miles. We would go out and ride at weekends to different destinations. We would also catch the train and then cycle from there to campsites or a place to visit like a castle or a forest. One of my favourite places was Grizedale Sculpture park. On that occasion we had got a car and the bikes were tied to the top of it. We parked at the campsite and used that as a base to cycle all around the lake district.

One day I was cycling home from a friends houss and was hit by a car. I ended up with a fractured skull. From that day I became nervous of cycling. After a couple of more years of riding the bike suddenly collapsed underneath me. It had been damaged in the accident and the brazing had broken on the bike headset. It took months to get my bike repaired by which time I had started to drive more frequently. My health got worse and I was not able to ride my bike any distance.

I think it was about then that I became more risk averse. I still liked to go and do adventurous things but I was more careful. Nowadays I am even more concerned with safety. Covid and the pandemic has made me more aware of my situation and my security. I guess that I realise my life has changed, and I can not do things I would have happily done in the past.

Repairing split jeans

Posted on July 9, 2023July 9, 2023 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Blue, Colour, Cotton, Jeans, Life, Memory, Painting, Sewing, Thread, threadbareLeave a comment

My old painting jeans. They are years old. When they started to split I started to sew. One patch of sewing covers another. Trying to keep up with the holes!

Mostly sewn with cotton reel thread, a few strands of embroidery silk. My stitches are no longer neat and small. My shaking arm makes it hard to hold the material while I try and stitch. The yellow is the latest cotton. I will swap to another colour soon. I just need to catch the rip below the pocket before it gets any worse. It’s really threadbare…

This is like the story of the old broom. It’s had three new stales and two new brush heads… But it’s still the old broom you always knew… X

Classical

Posted on July 8, 2023 Posted in UncategorizedTagged ballet, classical, dailyprompt, dailyprompt-1991, genre, Life, Memory, Music, operas, symphonies, Time2 Comments

What is your favorite genre of music?

Stravinsky, Holst, Tchaikovsky, Strauss, Mozart, lots of older and more modern classical pieces. Including opera, ballet, symphonies and anthems.

I particularly like the Rites of Spring, and the Planet Suite. But almost every piece of classical music cheers me up.

But one of my difficulties is I can never remember what half of the melodies or composers are called. I will remember the music when I hear it, but ask me to name specific pieces and I struggle. Oh I know Ravel wrote the Bolero and Tchaikovsky wrote Swan Lake (I hope?), but I have a blind spot. I can remember some physics or biology, or information about art and artists, but music of any genre? I really struggle. It’s not in my head. And yet if I’m singing with the choir, I don’t remember the song until we start singing, then suddenly its there, words and tune. I must have a strange brain.

Mallaband-Brown

Tag: Memory