Scroogy

Posted on December 8, 2024 Posted in UncategorizedTagged A Christmas Carol, Alone, Annoying, Broken, Charles Dickens, Film, Friend, Frustrating, Grumpy, Life, miser, Scrooge, Tired, visitor2 Comments

A friend just came round to see how I was. I’d just finished watching the George C Scott version of a Christmas Carol by Charles Dickens, so I was happy to ask her in. She’s a lovely person but a bit excitable and overwhelming.

Anyway she started tidying up the kitchen and put some things in the recycling bin. I heard her moving things and came in to find she was mixing up the types of waste. Not only that she had put my refillable olive oil bottle in the bin. I had to ask her to stop and pulled it back out again. Then she went in the bathroom and managed to break a bit off the tap, (it just needed screwing back in place).

I know how my stuff works and she could have asked instead of coming in like a bull in a China shop. I appreciated her concern for me but please let me do things my own way.

By the time we had chatted for half an hour I was feeling fraught. Thats why I feel a bit grumpy/scroogy. I’ve got used to my own company, I like doing things my own way and I was getting frustrated by her trying to take over. She’s gone now and so has my almost Migraine. It’s left me feeling like a bad host!

Myself

Posted on June 7, 2024 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Alone, company, dailyprompt, dailyprompt-1962, desert island, Prompt, recluse, ThinkingLeave a comment

Who do you spend the most time with?

It’s 6 months since he went (almost exactly). 6 months alone. Finding my way. The rest of my life? I was always with someone. Being a support and supporting. Now.. I see to myself and try and help others where I can.

When I do spend time with others it’s with good friends or members of groups that do activities I enjoy. But sometimes, I just want to be alone.

I guess I could live as a recluse, or alone on a desert island? I might not be good at finding food though. I would need someone to drop me off supplies or have a mild environment where plentiful food grew all year round. But how would I know what was safe to eat or drink? I’d need sterilising tablets or fire to boil water. Life isn’t simple when you are alone. Even in the simplest of environments. And when you live in an industrial society you are too estranged from real life and real survival skills.

My life is in a brick and mortar cave. I can survive here, but I still need to maintain it, look after it. Life is constantly changing. I appreciate company.

Sleep

Posted on February 5, 2024 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Alone, Calm, Dreams, Insomnia, peaceful, Poem, Poetry, Rhyme, Sleeping, sound sleep2 Comments

I want to sleep soundly

Breathe roundly

Feel calmly relaxed

I don’t want pain

Or even gain

Just deep sleep

Snoring softly

Waking from lofty

Dreams and slumbers

Castles and clouds

Instead of eyes opening

On a dark night

Onto an empty space

Alone

Posted on January 14, 2024January 14, 2024 Posted in Memories, UncategorizedTagged Alone, Death, emotional, Feelings, Hubby, Life, Loss, Memories, our life together, Time12 Comments

Each morning I look for you

Remember cycling behind you

Along roads we knew

I listen for your key in the door

Your footstep on the stair

The sound of your voice

“come to bed – it’s late!”

The times I didn’t hear you

Switched off and ignored you.

I feel guilty for losing you

Not taking care of you….

A phone call to say you’re Ok

I’ll see you today?

Coming back,

Not gone forever

The mirror is broken

Lost forever

And I’m alone.

Walk that road

Posted on June 10, 2022June 10, 2022 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Alone, Empty, Lonely, Mind, Poem, Poetry, Rhyme, Sad, Thought, WalkLeave a comment

Walk that lonely road,

Carry a heavy load

Head down with your thoughts

Tangled up and caught.

Never look around

Don’t listen to the sound

Of singing birds

Or spoken words…

They are hidden

And are unbidden

From you world

Mind unstirred

Alone.

Feeling lonely

Posted on April 25, 2020 Posted in Sketching, UncategorizedTagged Alone, Blank verse, Lonely, Memory, Poem, Poetry, Thinking, Thought, Time4 Comments

I’m tired

A bit lonely,

I have company,

But it isn’t easy.

I should ring you

I should speak,

But I hesitate,

I wait.

And all alone,

But yet, together,

My mind is caught,

My brain is baffled.

My shoulders tight.

I am alone,

In the end,

All alone.

Lonely.

On the coast.

Posted on November 24, 2019 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Alone, Island, Lost, Shipwrecked, Short story, Very short story2 Comments

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Looking for shells. Looking for seaweed on the seastrand. Everything washed clean, no sign of plastic. No sign of anything. The world had changed.

Food was the problem. Not a shellfish in sight, no fish either. It was like a desert. He tried sucking pebbles so that he could stave off his thirst. Later he would go and try and light a fire with some marram grass in the dunes. He walked up slowly off the beach, conserving his energy. There must be something somewhere.

He came over the rise and saw an old concrete building. No door, open to the wind, but shelter. He rummaged inside the cupboards, green with algae. Rotting. But amazingly he found old tin cans. Now if he could find something to open them with, light a fire.

Alone on the island he looked out to sea. Maybe one day a ship would pass? He could only hope.

Mallaband-Brown

Tag: Alone