Small cat?

Posted on March 24, 2024 Posted in Cat, UncategorizedTagged Black and white cat, Cat, Claws, Insomnia, Paws, Sleeping, Tired, Tuxedo catLeave a comment

No, just the camera angle. He does look cute, warm and cuddly. But beware the claws, tickle his chest and he’s OK, but go anywhere near his belly and the paws grab you and his claws will hook into your flesh.

It’d almost 2am, I can’t sleep so I’m watching a silly film and I just looked over to see where the TV remote is and saw him. Now the cat flap has clattered and his sister has come in from outside. I guess she will be looking for a warm chair to sleep on too. Cats cheer me up when I’m feeling really low.

Phone alarm

Posted on March 19, 2024 Posted in Cat, UncategorizedTagged alarm, Awake, Bed, Cat, cats claws, Morning, Music, Phone, Sleeping, tinkly, TiredLeave a comment

Somewhere downstairs my sisters phone alarm is going off. She must still be asleep, but the high pitched tinkling music woke me up and my cats too! I am quite a light sleeper and I have good hearing which doesn’t help. Then on this grey and tinkly morning one of my cats has decided to tunnel down the bed next to me and stick her claws in my knees in order to get a bit of love. Chin and belly rub over she leaps back out of bed. Now I’m awake so I decided to let you know. Perhaps your phone will tinkle or beep and wake you up? X Morning X

Slept

Posted on March 4, 2024 Posted in Fine Art, Memories, UncategorizedTagged Acrylic on canvas, Awake, Exhibition, Insomnia, Life, poppy painting, Sleep, TiredLeave a comment

Poppy painting, makes me think of sleep, soporific, ancient remedy. Beautiful but dangerous. Trying to channel art nouveau I guess.

Last night I wished I could sleep, all my strategies, thinking of healing, trying to relax, counting backwards,, none of them worked. So I got up after my sleepless night then went out and sang at choir. I could feel the tiredness spreading through me. This afternoon was hard, I was trying to arrange the paintings for the exhibition I’m holding. I feel like I’m having to rely more and more on others and I want my independence.

When I got home I had a bit of tea, but then whoosh! The sleep came without trying. It meant I missed this evenings choir practice, so I felt guilty, I just hope I can sleep tonight. X

Sleepless in Stoke

Posted on March 4, 2024 Posted in Cat, Memories, UncategorizedTagged Awake, Cat, Counting sheep, Insomnia, Memory, Pain, Sleep, strategy, Thinking, Thought, TiredLeave a comment

I need one if those old fashioned ‘intermission’ films they used to show between films at a Saturday matinee at the cinema to relax my mind. Gentle music and the sight of a potters wheel twirling might help me to sleep. I’ve forgotten the various little strategies I use to try and fall asleep. Pain and discomfort have held my mind up like a theif of sleep. Haunting me in the night. A few, drowsy thoughts and I’m awake again, sometimes disturbed by a heartbeat out of turn or the patter of cats paws. I have things to do today and I didn’t want to be tired. 6am…..goodnight, I will try counting sheep

Snowdrops

Posted on February 25, 2024 Posted in Memories, UncategorizedTagged Cold, Growing, Health, Rode hall, snowbells, Snowdrops, Spring, Staffordshire, Time, Tired, Visit, WalkLeave a comment

I went with a friend to Rode Hall today to take a look at the snowdrop walk, an annual event where people can walk round and see snowdrops growing by the lake and in the woods. Sadly we are at the end of the snowdrop season so a lot of them have finished flowering. But it was good to get out.

I’ve been hiding away recently. I don’t like driving very far as my health has deteriorated. But going out with a friend made me feel safer. I hung onto her on the slippy muddy bits. I feel like I’m teetering forward all the time. My balance is off, but I managed to bend down and take a photo of the snowdrops (galanthus ?) I know Rode Hall has lots of varieties of snowdrops and snowbells?

I got home and fell asleep, I was so tired, but I’m glad I went. Spring is on its way.

Rode Hall is off the A34 Road near Scholar Green in Staffordshire.

Last night..

Posted on January 9, 2024 Posted in Cat, UncategorizedTagged Asleep, Black and white cat, Cat, Insomnia, Poem, Poetry, Sleepless, third night, Tired, Tuxedo cat2 Comments

The cats slept but I didn’t.

Little snores kept me awake.

I don’t like the dark

Or the cold

Being on my own.

One cat gets under the covers

Claws out, poddling me

It’s sweet but

Then she gets too hot

Leaping out and away.

I tried reading

But I ached,

My mind raced

Too tired to sleep now.

Third night this week….

Dawn

Posted on January 7, 2024 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Insomnia, Life, Night, Pain, Poem, Poetry, regret, Sadness, Sleep, Thoughts, Time, Tired1 Comment

Sky lightens

Black to blue

To greys

Clouded

My mind spins

Thoughts orbit

Won’t stay still

Words babble

Muddle,

Tired and befuddled

Where is sleep?

Oh for a good night’s sleep

Posted on January 3, 2024 Posted in Cat, Sketching, UncategorizedTagged Art, ArtRage app, Cats, Drawing, Life, Light, Radio, Sleep, Sleepless, Tired, yawning2 Comments

Distractions don’t work, I’m dreading the night, time for my mind to run riot. Put the radio on low? I just have to listen. I can’t stop myself. It’s too dark so I put the light on to feel safer. The cats jump on the bed but then want attention. My head spins. My circadian rythms are all over the place. A cup of cocoa doesnt work. Yawning now. 8.30am another sleepless night.

Insomnia yet again

Posted on December 27, 2023 Posted in Cat, Memories, UncategorizedTagged Bike, Black and white cat, Cat, Cocoa, Cycling, Hills, Hubby, Insomnia, Memory, tandem, Tired6 Comments

Sleeping is a issue yet again. I’m either too cold or too hot. Lost without my hubby who passed away three weeks ago. I really have a heavy heart. I just spent the last hour or so remembering things we did in the past. Going for bike or tandem rides when we were younger. The feeling of almost flying along, racing each other down hills (I was always more cautious). How he took in a stray cat a few years ago that had come limping into our garden, it turned out to have been abandoned by it’s owner. That cat is now sleeping on hubbys bodywarmer. I think it misses him as much as I do. It’s almost 5am. Going to make a cocoa.

Covid? still got it?

Posted on December 20, 2023December 20, 2023 Posted in UncategorizedTagged corona virus, Covid, Dizzy, hot and cold, Illness, Positive, ruuny nose, Sick, Sore throat, Test, Tired2 Comments

I feel rough so I did another covid test. It’s positive again. I managed to avoid it for all the years it’s been around. I think I’ve just been unlucky and seen too many people recently. I really feel bad incase I’ve passed it on to others. According to the government you don’t have to self isolate any more, but why would I not protect my friends and family?

Sore throat, dizzy, runny nose, aches, hot and cold shivers. I hate it, I don’t need it. I want to be better. I’ve got things I need to do but I have to be patient. It’s very frustrating, and the longer things get left the less I want to do them.

Someone told me if it’s just one line even if it’s the C line it’s negative? Googled it and apparently you have to have both lines to be positive. I will test again in the morning but might be good news. X

Mallaband-Brown

Tag: Tired