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Recently….
Someone explain… First my car broke, now the water supply to the bathroom is bust. I had a flood on Sunday. And my fridge is freezing things, my microwave is on the way out, my hoover stopped working, and today my oil heater conked! Plus I had to sort out my phone… And the fence blew over..
I said I don’t mind having bad luck.. But this is ridiculous! Things must get better soon..
I’m still recovering from yesterday. My cat was due to be operated on so I took him to the vets at 8am. I barely slept the night before.
After leaving him I then went to the art group I go to so that I could take my mind off things. I’d also arranged to get a new battery for my phone, so my friend gave me a lift after art group.
So off we went, but the shop needed to keep my phone so I came home without it after asking the shop worker to bring it to my house after 5pm. He agreed because he lived nearby.
Then to the vets, I had to walk over as I didn’t have my phone!? But the cat (who hadn’t had his operation because they had 5 emergency operations in through the day) was not ready to be collected, so I walked home slowly to wait for my phone. By then I was exhausted. The phone duly arrived, and I rang the vets who confirmed the cat was ready. I then walked there and back, very slowly with stops… He was so pleased to be home…
Then later on I had to go and chair a meeting about a drama a group I am in…
I’m consequently so tired…
My phone battery died, it will only work if its plugged into the wall. I’m finding it hard to stand up and type. I will try and get a plug in battery. My phone is old and might not be possible to transfer all my data.
I went to a mobile phone shop yesterday but they couldn’t or wouldn’t do it because my phone is old and they “don’t recognise it’s operating system” in other words too much trouble. Basically they said buy a new phone and reinstall apps.
What about my emails, my thousands of photos, my documents, the websites I am on. My list of phone numbers and email addresses….
Help!
A few days ago it would have been my hubby’s birthday. He is not here anymore and I felt too sad to blog here. Also my phone is playing up so I might struggle to post till I get a new battery, which means finding somewhere to do that. I don’t want a replacement for my phone (or hubby). I prefer to get things fixed if I can.
My hubby was not fixable, I can’t tell you how much I wish things had been different. I still feel lost without him. I think grief is not controllable, you have to go with its ways, sometimes succumbing to the pain…. Despite wanting to make it go away. I just want to remember him always, even if I do feel blue….
We will call you at 3pm.
So I stood in the kitchen, next to the phone at 3pm, it was on charge and I didn’t want to miss the call. It’s cold in the kitchen, but that’s where my charger is..
Half past 3, still no call. I had been trying to do a few stretches as I have been too sedentary since I had to scrap my car. It aches when I move and that’s clearly not good for me. A few upper body stretches and push aways from the kitchen counter.
3.45pm, did I get the time wrong? I started playing a game on my phone, I like Mahjong. Maybe they would call at 4pm?
Now it’s 4.06pm.im not impressed, if you promise to call you should make it. Maybe the caller is ill. In that case send a text to alert the recipient!
At least I got a bit of exercise.
Keep your phone charged, waiting for a call. Going out, I might need a taxi. Waiting for a call… Is she going tonight or tomorrow? Waiting for a call.. You passed the test, welcome on board.
We’ll meet at 6pm… But that’s gone, maybe there’s a problem. Waiting for a call. The same four words repeated.
Will they ever call me? Is there a reason they haven’t? Information required. I hope they call soon….
Pondering questions passes the time. Phones are too important these days. What else could we do? Relax, read a book. Switch the phone off!
I think I’m holding this phone too much.
Strong grip tightens muscles,
Hand clutches
Top and side of my shoulder aches.
Limited movement
Tense and tight
Shoulders raised to my ears
It’s agony when I lie down to sleep
Or reach up to get something
Out of the cupboard.
Grr
Enough
Rest and recuperate.
Mum why are you waving that slab of plastic in my face? I can’t see you because it’s in the way? Your eyes are always on it. Hunched over it. At least when you used a keyboard I could walk over that and sit on it and make lo[[[tttttttttttttttttttssssss of letters with it!
Mum do stop with your hands on the front of it! I want you to look at me, stroke my nose, rub my head, tickle my ears.
Oh you are not interested? Then I’ll look the other way…
I keep picking my phone up
Looking at the screen
A blip of endorphins?
Another look…
Gradually it builds
More reading
More reposting
Soon I’m overwhelmed
So much sadness, evil,
No compassion.
It hurts
Stop
Now
!!!
I don’t do many of these anymore. I find it harder to hold my phone when I’m sketching and drawing. My fingers cramp up round the phone and sometimes round a stylus if I’m drawing with one. Anyway got to keep my hand in as the saying goes. Ten minute digital drawing in my Artrage app.
Mallaband-Brown