I try yoga breathing

How do you relax?

I can’t do this pose!

I’ve been shown how to do box breathing. You sit upright and close your eyes. Breath deeply into your belly…

Basically breathe in for a count of four

Hold your breath for four

Breathe out for four.

Hold your breath for four.

There are other more complex methods of yogic breathing, including alternative nostril breathing. But this technique is easy to follow.

You can carry on doing box breathing till you feel relaxed.

Life!

Do you need a break? From what?

Take a break…. Lunch? No

What then?

Less stress, more rest….

But things keep going on

Coming at me

Bashing my mind

Thumping. My. Body

Some of it my own fault

But lost without my soulmate.

Tired and alone

Just want to stop the world

And get off

Leave the trolls behind

Hibernate, hide from. Life.

Not giving up

Just relaxing.

Quiet 1.1.25

I haven’t done much.

The front door remained closed

The curtains the same.

No reason to go out,

No wish to speak

Warm enough to sleep

Quiet enough to rest

My heart misses a beat

When a figure passes the door.

Watching TV a while

Reading a book to make me smile

Why bother to move

Just have a coffee, a sandwich

And snooze.

Contemplation or hiding?

You choose.

Help

My life is quite chaotic at the moment. Lots of things to do, plenty of time, but lack of inclination to do things. Procrastinating is my favourite pastime!

Everything is tangled up. I’m trying to organise and assess things, but failing. Thinking and worrying is not helping. I think I need to meditate or do some relaxation. It’s not that I don’t want to do things, but I think I’ve had my head in the sand for so many months, I don’t know how to drag it back out. I know this is self reflection, and I hope its a good thing. Writing it down might give me a push.

Grief has not helped. And now other people I know have died and that has knocked me back. I don’t want to think of the end of things. But I guess we should all make some plans? Sorry this is a bit random, maybe talking will help though.

My cats

Brother and sister

I love them, my boy cat (back) and girl cat (front).

I adjusted this photo to black and white because there were too many colours and I thought it would be better with a filter to make the image more coherent. These are both small cats, the girl has a smaller head but a bigger body (she likes her nosh), boy is a healthy weight, not too big. Both are happy and are learning to integrate with the boy cat from outside, even though he’s bigger than both of them, they boss him!