Lazy days?

Posted on October 19, 2023 Posted in UncategorizedTagged 'the', Artists block, dailyprompt, dailyprompt-2094, lazyness, Procrastination, Relaxed, Thinking, Words2 Comments

Do lazy days make you feel rested or unproductive?

I don’t so much have lazy days, more procrastinating ones. So in that case they are unproductive. I’m bound with the strings of fear and anxiety, hard to move. I look on and think about what I could do, but I am blocked somehow. I think I have artistic block?

Lazyness would be nice, to just sit and relax, to stop churning thoughts. Your breath settles, you snuggle in your duvet. No thoughts of ‘I must do’ this that and the other.

I love thinking, I do it a lot, my mind is rarely quiet, but I have learnt to think the word ‘the’ over and over, it breaks the train of thought so you can’t fixate on something that’s distracting you. Not lazy, but it assists me getting to sleep. X

Gap

Posted on October 19, 2023October 19, 2023 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Builders, Frustrated, Gap, Garden, Hedge, Life, Photo, Sad, Shop, theft, Thinking8 Comments

The gap is, there like a broken tooth. Whoever got in the garden broke down the old fence and broke down branches. I’m fed up because a builder cut our hedge severely last year so he could get a digger down our alleyway. Then the local shop said they were going to put a gate across the alley for security but it hasn’t happened yet. I’m trying to get a builder in to put in some fencing, but he hasn’t responded…. Oh well. We hope our efforts work. But we won’t be storing things in the garden again.

Pain

Posted on October 16, 2023 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Aches, Age, anguish, army, fighting pain, fronts, Hurt, Life, Pain, Poem, Poetry, Thinking, Time2 Comments

Pain attacks from different directions

Trundles like an army on alternative fronts

I need to relax

Let my body un-tense

Then the pain flows away

Fear and stress exacerbate

Anxiety cramps me up

But starting to understand

I can calm my impulses

Like a frozen bag of peas

Soothes the army of pain

Descalating aches

Deflating anguish.

Backache

Posted on October 15, 2023 Posted in Cat, UncategorizedTagged Ache, Back, Backache, Cat, Life, Pain, Poem, Poetry, slept badly, Thinking, Twisted2 Comments

Ouchies it hurts

I’ve slept badly

Twisted and turned

Sat up with the cat

Sitting on my chest.

Feels like it’s breaking

Splitting in half

At waist height

I don’t feel bright!

Many things

Posted on October 14, 2023 Posted in Memories, UncategorizedTagged counselling, dailyprompt, dailyprompt-2089, Difficulty, easy, hard, held back, medium, Prevarication, Thinking9 Comments

What have you been putting off doing? Why?

When you go through bad times anxiety and nerves can hold you back. These emotions can make you hold your tongue, stop you going out, make you forget to write to, or email, or phone people. You put off till tomorrow and forget to do today… Eventually everything piles up and you don’t do anything, or just the bare minimum.

But I’m learning through counselling to do easy tasks first, then as they get easier and less onerous you can move on to medium difficulty tasks, and finally difficult ones. But if you have a set back, don’t give up. Start again with things you can cope with and gradually move on. Self repair, self acceptance. Be kind to yourself.

Last week I found myself laughing, I hope I can start doing more of the things I have been putting off. Hopefully…. Unless I get too stressed.

A lot of people

Posted on October 12, 2023 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Consideration, dailyprompt, dailyprompt-2087, Family, Friends, Helping, Money, Thinking, Time7 Comments

If you had a million dollars to give away, who would you give it to?

I’ve actually thought this through. I would give some to family and friends, it turns out you can gift someone £3000 without having to pay tax. But I would give more than that and gladly pay it. Then I would think of acquaintances to help. I would try and share a reasonable amount. Having done that I would buy a small house and garden, a bit bigger than mine now, but not huge. Enough to neatly fit paintings and books with a warm studio with plenty of light to paint and draw in. A natural garden with pond. It would not be too far away from family and friends. Obviously the cats come along too.

I would have to ensure I could pay all my bills each year.

Finally I would try and donate to charity… I would have to support local as well as national charities.

Still doing gratitudes.

Posted on October 5, 2023 Posted in Sketching, UncategorizedTagged 3 gratitudes, feeling better, gratitudes, Life, Memories, Sketching, Thinking, Time6 Comments

After a break because I was injured and fed up I decided to start a new gratitude book. I wrote down what had happened so that I will remember how I was feeling. But I didn’t want to start right from the beginning. So today I’m actually on day 420.

Three gratitudes a day helps balance the bad things that are going on as well. I like adding a small sketch to each gratitude to make it more real to me and helps me remember what went on during the day. I’m glad this idea was suggested to me. It really helps x

Two appointments

Posted on October 3, 2023 Posted in UncategorizedTagged appointments, Life, Missed, Sitting, Thinking, Tidying, Waiting, Washing, Washing up4 Comments

Sitting waiting for two housecalls. I booked them in my diary last week and got up to tidy up, did the washing up and put a load in the washing machine.

Now I’m sitting and waiting. I’ve tried to find the email address and phone numbers for the visitors but they are on a bit of paper ‘somewhere’ and I’ve tidied it away ‘somewhere’. To find it I think I’m going to have to go through all the papers I piled up in a big pile to get them out of the way.

When you make an appointment it would be good to let the person know if you are going to be delayed as a courtesy. I know I’m old fashioned. But I wish I knew what was going on!

Everything

Posted on October 2, 2023 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Anxiety, attention, dailyprompt, dailyprompt-2077, everything, Life, Planning, Plans, Thinking, Worry2 Comments

What details of your life could you pay more attention to?

Recently I’ve been putting my head in the sand and taking avoiding action. Anxiety will do that to you. Pulling my mind and life back up out of it is hard work.

A lot of it is external, caused by things out of my control. But even so I must pay more attention to things. I must not let things to continue to spiral out of my grasp.

The plan is to look at easy, medium and hard things to do. Trying to do one or two or even three of them a day.

What I found was that trying to do all three one day exhausted me, made me too tired the next day to do anything more. I think I am a bit burnt out? Maybe getting things done less quickly and trying to build up is the best way to go?

Anyway I’m going to try and get back to normal soon.

Getting organised

Posted on October 1, 2023 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Anxiety, daily prompt, dailyprompt, dailyprompt-2076, Diary, Nerves, organised, priority, Thinking, World2 Comments

What’s your #1 priority tomorrow?

I’ve been disorganised and muddled for a while. I need to get some semblance of organisation back in my life.

So, I am trying to use my diary more, and not ignore it. I’ve got into the habit of moving things on instead of doing things. I’ve got to stop. I think I mustn’t overload myself with plans.

My main problem is procrastination. Like a rabbit caught in the headlights, I get worried about how I’m going to get something done, that leads to anxiety, and I find it easier not to do the thing that needs doing.

Life has a way of getting involved, things crop up and stop you in your tracks. Pain and anxiety mix into a cocktail of disasters. The world spins you round the wrong way and everything gets out of kilter.

So now I have to start getting over things, I need to break my fears down into achievable goals, or I will just sink into a deeper mess. Getting organised is definitely my number one priority.

Mallaband-Brown

Tag: Thinking