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I decided to write a poem on a poetry page on Facebook. Here it is.
I would like to be brave and post something here.
But my poems are mostly spontaneous.
An explosion of thought on the page.
My mind dances around thoughts,
Spiralling into nooks and crannies.
Flying across the landscape of my brain.
Hopefully landing safely and intact.
The nights are getting longer
The days slightly shorter
It’s almost bedtime
But I’m hot
My heart aches, my mind too
So I’ll sit and watch TV a bit
No sensible thoughts in my mind
Just watching the nights decline
Into a slow dawn.
Maybe the sun will shine bright
In the morning after this night.
I don’t know
Time goes slow
When you’re alone
With the pain of loss.
How do you want to retire?
I need a crystal ball.
To see into my future
Life could be fun
Or a daily grind
Who can tell?
Will I get a pension?
Will I have enough?
Will the planet be OK?
What will happen to the environment?
Lots of questions.
I would like to keep as fit as I can.
I hope to feel enthusiastic again,
Maybe get involved in the community.
Semi retirement is OK
But I do feel a little lost
I do try and do things
When I’m feeling OK.
That’s the main thought
A wish to be OK
To keep going.
Not to lose my way.
What strategies do you use to cope with negative feelings?
My gratitude book it is blank
I feel like I’ve nothing to thank
Thinking all things are bad
When there is some good
But I keep on getting so sad…
I may try and fill in the blank
Pages with three thoughts a day
But it’s been so hard
To find the right way
I really don’t know what to say.
Words and drawings
For over a year
I collected my
Thoughts so dear
But then in December
Bad things I remember
Made me give up
On any small cheer.
I’ll start again one day
If my troubles do go away
My mind is in rubble
With no happy bubble
I hope that’s not how I will stay.
Tell us about your favorite pair of shoes, and where they’ve taken you.
Not flip flos
Not beach sandals
Proper walking sandals
Have taken me up and down
Hills and paths
Through fords
Into the sea
On hot days and pebble beaches
Foreshore, piers
Along garden paths
Looking for minnows
In shallows
Sandals that supported me
Sandals that transported me
Sandals I tore off
When my feet got stuck in mud
Sandals that wore out
Heels worn down
Sandals full of grit and memory
That guided my feet..
To you
Do you need a break? From what?
For those that follow my blog you will know I’ve been going through a couple of bad years. I really want things to stop going wrong. I feel like the universe is jumping up and down on my head. I’d like a break. That’s just a few days where I can relax and recover.
Holidays, that’s a word I don’t think I will hear in the future. I have ‘leisure time’ but that’s just sitting being bored because I don’t have anything I can do or want to do. I’ve spent years looking after someone and I’d love to have that responsibility back. The silence is deep sometimes. Thinking is not a ‘break’. We would talk and chat, breaking that silence with serious thoughts or silly humour. I could always make him laugh.. There is no laughter now.
Sky lightens
Black to blue
To greys
Clouded
My mind spins
Thoughts orbit
Won’t stay still
Words babble
Muddle,
Tired and befuddled
Where is sleep?
Wishing you a good new year
With laughter and full of cheer.
May your days be bright
Lit by the sun’s starlight
Have plenty to eat
Savory and sweet
May your dreams come true
For all of you.
Love and peace to the world
As the new year is unfurled.
As Julian of Norwich wrote so many years ago.
“All shall be well, and all shall be well, and all manner of things shall be well.”
If I’m not about
I’ve not gone
I’m here in your heart
My silence is a quiet breath
A silent prayer
Just know
I’m still there
With you.
How do I get readers attention?
Should I write:
Poems, stories about cats, short stories, art, life, Sci fi, a mixture? I try and keep up with the times, but am I boring you? I need to be self critical and also intelligible. Are my posts interesting? I try and be polite, considerate, thoughtful, but I’m probably too old fashioned.
I can’t talk about pop music, and I love science. I try and think things through. I think I must be a nerd
So far this post has been about me (I), but really, what about you?
Have you any suggestions, and ideas, are you interested in knitting or quantum physics? I can’t promise to be able to write about either, but I’m willing to try!
Mallaband-Brown