Tired!

Posted on June 15, 2024 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Boring, Cat Food, Cold, Heating, Life, Rain, Shopping, Sleep, snoozing, Tired, WetLeave a comment

What a day! Rain so heavy it must have weighed a ton! A few sunny spells. So cold I put the heating on, snuggled down and snoozed.

As I type I can hear the cars splashing through the rain outside and loud drips falling against the window round the back. At least my new plants and hanging baskets are getting well watered. I need to do some more gardening. Potting plants on, but it’s easier to shiver inside.

What else did I do? I watched a few YouTube videos and got out to get some cat food. Sheer excitement. Hence the pretty flowers, it’s less boring than today.

Cats

Posted on March 9, 2024 Posted in Cat, UncategorizedTagged Bed, Black and white cat, Cat, Humour, Life, Poem, Poetry, Shape, Sleep, Space, Tuxedo catLeave a comment

Three cats on the bed

Like a Venn diagram

Each in a space

Far enough away

Not to menace

Or chase.

It’s fine for them

Keeping warm

But what shape

Do I have to make

To sleep in the space

That’s left?

Slept

Posted on March 4, 2024 Posted in Fine Art, Memories, UncategorizedTagged Acrylic on canvas, Awake, Exhibition, Insomnia, Life, poppy painting, Sleep, TiredLeave a comment

Poppy painting, makes me think of sleep, soporific, ancient remedy. Beautiful but dangerous. Trying to channel art nouveau I guess.

Last night I wished I could sleep, all my strategies, thinking of healing, trying to relax, counting backwards,, none of them worked. So I got up after my sleepless night then went out and sang at choir. I could feel the tiredness spreading through me. This afternoon was hard, I was trying to arrange the paintings for the exhibition I’m holding. I feel like I’m having to rely more and more on others and I want my independence.

When I got home I had a bit of tea, but then whoosh! The sleep came without trying. It meant I missed this evenings choir practice, so I felt guilty, I just hope I can sleep tonight. X

Sleepless in Stoke

Posted on March 4, 2024 Posted in Cat, Memories, UncategorizedTagged Awake, Cat, Counting sheep, Insomnia, Memory, Pain, Sleep, strategy, Thinking, Thought, TiredLeave a comment

I need one if those old fashioned ‘intermission’ films they used to show between films at a Saturday matinee at the cinema to relax my mind. Gentle music and the sight of a potters wheel twirling might help me to sleep. I’ve forgotten the various little strategies I use to try and fall asleep. Pain and discomfort have held my mind up like a theif of sleep. Haunting me in the night. A few, drowsy thoughts and I’m awake again, sometimes disturbed by a heartbeat out of turn or the patter of cats paws. I have things to do today and I didn’t want to be tired. 6am…..goodnight, I will try counting sheep

Dawn

Posted on January 7, 2024 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Insomnia, Life, Night, Pain, Poem, Poetry, regret, Sadness, Sleep, Thoughts, Time, Tired1 Comment

Sky lightens

Black to blue

To greys

Clouded

My mind spins

Thoughts orbit

Won’t stay still

Words babble

Muddle,

Tired and befuddled

Where is sleep?

Oh for a good night’s sleep

Posted on January 3, 2024 Posted in Cat, Sketching, UncategorizedTagged Art, ArtRage app, Cats, Drawing, Life, Light, Radio, Sleep, Sleepless, Tired, yawning2 Comments

Distractions don’t work, I’m dreading the night, time for my mind to run riot. Put the radio on low? I just have to listen. I can’t stop myself. It’s too dark so I put the light on to feel safer. The cats jump on the bed but then want attention. My head spins. My circadian rythms are all over the place. A cup of cocoa doesnt work. Yawning now. 8.30am another sleepless night.

Missing mystery

Posted on December 20, 2023 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Book, Cadviael, Lost, Mystery, Night, perplexed, Sleep, Thinking, Tired, Worried2 Comments

I’m a little perplexed. I’ve been reading a, Brother Cadviael book over the past few nights, to take my mind off things. They are a series of mediaeval murder mysteries that I like. So when I came to bed I thought it would be waiting for me, but it isn’t. I was hot and bothered last night, so it might have fallen on the floor by the bed, but I can’t see it. I also went into the other room this morning but it’s not there either.

Things go missing sometimes, and generally that’s not a problem. I sometimes think there are borrowers in the house ( like the children’s book, with characters called Arrietty and Pod?). But at the moment I just want my book back. It’s out of place, out of possession and position. It’s bugging me. So I’m writing this as another distraction. Mysterious and also frustrating. I guess I will have to give up and go to sleep….

Look who’s on the bed

Posted on November 20, 2023 Posted in Cat, UncategorizedTagged Bed, Black and white cat, Cat, Duvet, Paws, Purring, Sleep, Tired, Tuxedo cat2 Comments

A night visitor, all prowl worn out, purring gently, wants love. Left me no room while I was out. Now do I move him or let him stay? Gentle purring makes that decision easy.

No sleep

Posted on September 14, 2023 Posted in UncategorizedTagged earthquake, Flooding, Insomnia, Libya, Morocco, News, Sleep, Tired, WorldLeave a comment

Nothing helped last night, counting backwards, trying breathing techniques, listening to the radio on very quietly. I couldn’t get comfortable, the bed cover was wrinkled, I kept getting cramp.

I’m surrounded by three cats, one on an armchair, one on the settee, which was getting in the way of my legs, one on the cat tree. I just realised they are being supportive. I know it sounds strange, but they have become much more attentive since my injury.

I’m going to make a warm decaff coffee and try and sleep…

And yet I’m just listening to the awful news about the flooding in Libya and the Earthquake in Morocco. My problem is nothing compared with that. The world is a cruel place.

I try and meditate

Posted on September 8, 2023 Posted in UncategorizedTagged 'the', dailyprompt, dailyprompt-2053, Meditation, Relaxation, Sleep, Thinking, Yoga4 Comments

How do you relax?

I try to meditate at yoga, but I often lose the imagery and fall asleep instead! Somehow the words of different visualisations deeply relax me. Luckily I’ve never had to be woken up, and usually I wake up as soon as the teacher tells us to bring some movement back to our bodies.

I was also given advice about using the word ‘the’ to take your mind off your worries. Basically thinking the word ‘the’ over and over has no context, you can’t attach other ideas onto it. So as I say you lose the worries and you can relax.

Mallaband-Brown

Tag: Sleep