my old friend

Posted on December 10, 2021 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Awake, Counting sheep, Help, Insomnia, no, Questions, Sleep, Sleep aponea, Thinking, Tired, yesLeave a comment

Yes, its almost 3.30am. No I can’t sleep. Yes, the neighbours security light keeps flashing on and off….flash.. flash…No, I can’t calm my thoughts, yes, I tried counting sheep. Yes, I just had a warm drink (decaff coffee). Yes, I am tired. No, I do’t know if I should be sticking commas after Yes, and No,. Yes, I WANT to sleep. Yes, his snoring doesnt help! No I can’t count sheep, they get blurry and disappear. No, it doesn’t help having to wear a mask for sleep aponea at night. Yes, I am too hot, but the house is too cold when I get out of bed. Yes I AM looking at a screen, which I know is bad for sleeping! Yes, aches and pains are NOT helping.

Yes, I try relaxation, sometimes it works, not tonight. Whats bugging me? I need to try and sort a friends problems out. No, I can’t tell her I don’t think I can help- I’m her friend. Yes, Covid is worrying me a lot. Yes, I’m very hot and bothered…. No- THIS IS NOT Helping! Oh well, better go back and TRY and SLEEP…

Hello Insomnia, my old friend, you’re keeping me awake again… its 3.40am- again.

I am quite lost

Posted on December 1, 2021 Posted in Sketching, UncategorizedTagged confiding, Friends, gloom, Help, Life, Memory, Pattern, Sketching, Support, Thinking, Time, Winter, World2 Comments

My mind is a bit muddled at the moment. I am dealing with lots of ‘stuff’ and I feel overwhelming worry that I won’t get back on track. My life physically has been bothering me and I’m waiting for an appointment to try and find answers. I’m dealing with things for myself, my family and friends, and because I can put a good case for things I don’t mind helping. But when you persue various options and each one closes down it gets more and more frustrating. I wish I could herd cats, work out the best thing for us. I had to ask for help recently, and that was difficult. I’m a proud person and I don’t like to think I can’t cope. But you know those straws that broke the camels back? I think they are building up. Maybe I need to hibernate and look after myself, but turning away from others is not in my nature.

Still want a sculpture

Posted on October 3, 2021 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Art, Friends, Gardening, Help, Ivy, Overgrown, Plants, Pruning, Sculpture, Time, Wisteria, WorkLeave a comment

Fox sculpture.

I still want a sculpture in our garden like this but the artist has not been in touch. I wonder if something has happened to him? Oh well, people get busy. I will try again and see if we can have it done.

A good friend came round earlier today and helped with our garden. It’s getting very overgrown and neither me or my hubby can manage it anymore. The whole thing needs cutting back and pruning. Unfortunately the wisteria was a casualty as it has grown into the ivy that has got onto the roof of the extension so it needs clearing. Then you might be able to see a sculpture!

Quorn tied to my leg

Posted on September 19, 2021 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Burslem port, calf muscle, Help, Hurt, Injured, Oatcake boat, Pulled muscle?, Walking4 Comments

Pulled my calf muscle trying to walk up a grassy slope while I was out singing at Burslem Port. I had a lift on Kay and Steve’s oatcake boat along the canal to Hanley then was driven home by Mark in our car. Richard, Mark and Ivan all helped me get about. Thanks to Kate, Greg, the staff and volunteers at Burslem. Everybody else for looking after me. I will have to try and get Roberts walking stick back to him. I’ve found stepping sideways is easier than trying to go forwards. I think upstairs is out of bounds at the moment. I hope I will be able to get around again and start walking in a few days. Glad I avoided an ambulance and A&E! Photo is a bag of frozen quorn tied against my calf muscle!

Don’t cry…

Posted on March 6, 2021 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Crying, Help, Life, Loss, Sad, Support, Thinking, TimeLeave a comment

Don’t cry for those that are gone. They cannot feel your tears. Wherever they are they can’t hear you. Remember them but don’t cry. Cry for the living, cry for those that have lost loved ones, talk to them about their loss. Don’t stay quiet and hope it will be OK. They need your words of solace.

And don’t forget the poor, the ill and the starving. The ones that are always forgotten. Take care of them, support them. Help them where you can. One day you will be gone too, but others will still be here. Then hope they get help too from others. So life supports life. And share love.

Eek!

Posted on December 30, 2020 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Chin, Crawling, Eek, Exclamation marks, Fear, Help, Mouth, Nervous, Scared, SpiderLeave a comment

I was just watching a film when something (I think it was a spider) walked across the neck of my jumper right under my chin. Eek. I jumped up from my chair! I usually like spiders, but not ones that are only an inch from my mouth! I pulled my jumper off and threw it across the room….. I couldn’t see the spider and I hope it didn’t get squashed! You can tell how jumpy its made me because of all the exclamation marks I’ve used. Eek!

It might have been a ladybird, trying to remember it’s shape and calming down now…. The cat had been sitting on my lap and he got dumped on the floor because of me jumping….

Succulents

Posted on October 6, 2020 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Good for you, Help, House plant, Indoor gardening, Indoor plant, Life, Mood, Plant, Random2 Comments

Houseplants are good for you according to recent research. Apparently just a glimmer of green in an otherwise plain and boring magnolia painted house can improve your mood. If you are locked down in a house or room, having that bit of green can help.

This is a badly watered succulent plant we have at the top of our stairs. I look out over our garden and feel infinitely lucky to have that patch of green.

I’m still confused 😕

Posted on September 3, 2020 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Blogging, Confused, Cursing changes, Help, Is this a draft?, Learning, Life, What does this mean?, WordPressLeave a comment

WordPress, it’s like looking in a mirror with your face obscured. You can see it’s there, but you can’t work out what is going on! I tried to update a post that I might have published, or might have been a draft, and I ended up in one of those endless loops, where you don’t know where anything is? I found myself being told the post was empty, that it was a local draft. That I needed to go to a preview rather than editing the post. Then I was told again the post was empty… Feels like fighting with bureaucracy. Not knowing what the other side knows, only what you suspect….. Anyway it eventually posted… I think!

still confused

Posted on August 24, 2020 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Confused, dazed, Digital drawing, Face, Help, Learning, Maze, Poem, Poetry4 Comments

Learning WordPress again

learning what to click and what not.

Finding out that route doesn’t work

going round in

circles

ever decreasing ones.

like a fish in a whirlpool

caught up in the flow

cant break free

cant see

a way

out of

this

maze

creating a portfolio in word

Posted on August 1, 2020August 1, 2020 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Art, Confused, Design, file size, Help, Illustration, Images, Learning, Portfolio, Technology, word 10, WorkLeave a comment

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I’m trying to create a portfolio of all my images I’ve made so far on my illustration course. I have managed to add them to a Word document, but I need to know what the file size is and as I’m not up to speed with Word 10 I’m not sure where to look. If the file size is too big I will struggle to upload it to the college. Any ideas? I know I’ve got to convert it to a PDF but I wanted to find out how big it was before I did that… Duh!

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