We are on the second named storm of the autumn season today. That’s two in three days. In some places 70 and 80 mile an hour winds. Heavy rain. Some flooding. The parched ground of the summer is bone dry…. But we need this, our country is usually green and tranquil. If you believe that you will believe anything! Britons are renowned for discussing the weather.
Digital drawing of storm clouds done in Artrage. I would call it “it’s dark over Bills mums”.
The inside of my head is like the inside of my house, cluttered and gunged up with stuff…
Books, fiction, non fiction, science fiction and fantasy, train and engineering books, philosophy, illustration, history. Anything and everything. I could probably send the books off to somewhere that needs a library restocking, although a lot of the, books are probably outdated or out of print.
I have a very visual memory and “see” places in my mind. If I decide to paint something I can remember what it looks like and describe it to myself in my thoughts.
You could almost describe my house as a physical memory palace. Ornaments, books, paintings, even tubes of paint link my mind back to a place I had visited or a person I knew.
The clutter hides my house. How pleased I would be to winnow out the best bits and suddenly have space. Honestly it’s like a, space station at the moment, full of things, floating around metaphorically, waiting to be tied down or ejected, I want to do it but physically ita beyond me, slow process and progress may be made. Talking about it might help.
Anyway, I do just like the word, cluttered, (and higgledy piggledy)……..
My friend keeps WhatsApp-ing me photos of the daily bread he makes in his air fryer. I think its charming and he keeps changing his recipes. But he WhatsApp me photos of the bread every day. So my gallery looks like a bakery! I delete the pictures when I remember…. But it gets a bit clogged up sometimes….
I think it would be rude to ask him to stop, but I do wish they would stop piling up…
Oh my word, I have been so busy, and tired, this last week.
Days are getting shorter, but I’ve had to cram lots into them. I’ve got a gardener in to cut back the ivy that was getting up onto my roof. I’ve had treatment on my foot, which has had an infection for several weeks. I’ve had tests on my thyroid and I’m feeling sad because it’s the anniversary of several sad occasions.
Consequently I have spent a lot of time contemplating life and what I can do to improve things. I haven’t made a plan, and I don’t see my life sunsetting, but I have to learn what I can continue to do and what I might have to give up.
This is a submission for a magazine I recently wrote. Don’t know if I’ll get it in. Copyright by me, Christine Mallabnd-Brown.
Cool Autumn
The nights come early now. Sparkling sunsets in blue and gold. The temperature drops, leaves shiver and fall onto the ground, or wait a while and shimmer on baring branches.
Damp ground fills with mycellium. Fungal bodies strike up through wet soil. Each fruiting body a mushroom or toadstool that pixies and fairies could dance on, mocking the real world with their gyrations.
Stink horns and puff balls sprout then burst, sending spores out into the earth to renew and grow for next year. Fairy rings enlarge and changlings replace children, only recognisable because their feet are at first on backwards until magic twists them back to the human position, toes forward.
As the season continues crisp leaves become soggy clumps of leaf litter, hiding autumn crocus in their deep piles of rotting mulch.
Oranges, gold, yellows, reds, browns, greens, purple, all mix and dull, seeping colour into the earth, dust to dust. Bonfires return ashes to the worms below.
Painting the reflected blue sky in puddles, the mists rise and turn to fogs, covering valleys and hiding hedgehogs and frogs below their veiled moisture. Moving into the hibernation season, Squirrels forage for nuts, planting them between flagstones and creating the beginnings of saplings that will erupt in the spring in awkward places.
The blurred vision of cataract eyed old women watch as the colours merge.
They see their childhoods dance through fallen leaves. Kicking them into the air with the abandon of playful energy. They sleep long sleeps, gradually covering themselves in autumnal eiderdowns. Keeping warmth close to their bodies. As the frosts arrive, snuggling slowly into a safe, eternal sleep.
The world beckons but I am not well enough to go out into it. My infected foot continues to be a pain. Literally. I’m finding it harder to walk in the house, let alone outside and I know I’m not doing enough exercise.
I’m on another lot of antibiotics which I hope will be improve things soon. My main problem is SHOES, my toe hurts when I put them on so I’m struggling with an open toed pair of tatty slippers, not really wearable outside the house. Although I had to go to the doctors in them, I was embarrassed to wear them.
So, I’m not feeling my best and I’ve missed coming here the last few days. Finding other things to do because I don’t know what to write about. Moaning about manky toes isn’t the best is it?