Three ambulances..no.. Four.

Posted on May 30, 2020May 30, 2020 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Ambulances, Blogging, Blue lights, Covid 19, Hospital, Life, Lockdown, Main route, Sad, ThinkingLeave a comment

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What is going on? Four ambulances came up our street in half an hour. Non of them had flashing blue lights. They were all presumably making there way over the hill to the hospital (we are on the main route). We’ve also seen a helicopter going over. I will see what the evening news says.

It’s worrying because our hospital takes covid 19 patients. I worry for them. Being alone and away from their families must be a fearful time. And yet across the road there’s shouting and laughing from a closed down pub. I wonder if its allowed but I won’t report it. There could be consequences….

Road traffic seems on the increase. Apparently there has been a lot of speeding due to reduced traffic. People have been caught going over 150 miles an hour in a 70 zone and 69 in a 50 zone. Madness. There has been a rise in accidents.

Maybe that’s why the ambulances have been busy.

I wish I was….

Posted on April 28, 2020April 28, 2020 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Danger, Health, Hoping, Ideas, Luck, Poem, Poetry, Poverty, Sad, Thinking, Thought, Values, WishingLeave a comment

Dancing at a barn dance,

putting up an exhibition,

displaying art on my craft stall.

Walking along the canal,

cycling through the countryside,

taking tea at a posh teashop.

Visiting a castle,

looking out to sea,

feeling the wind in my hair.

I’m glad I’m not

suffering from hunger,

hiding from bombs,

frightened and missing my family.

Too poor to buy medicine,

and all the time oppressed.

I may wish for things,

but I’m lucky to have things.

Missing you

Posted on March 9, 2020 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Friends, Ghosted, Internet, Life, Missing, Presence, Sad, Social media, Thinking, Web, WordPressLeave a comment

I’ve recently heard the phrase ‘ghosting’ when people no longer communicate with you on the Internet. It is a deliberate act of cutting themselves off from you.

I understand that sometimes people need a break and if there have been problems with a friendship or relationship then ghosting is a non aggressive or non argumentative way of splitting up.

But then there is the situation where people go missing on the Internet. I miss a few people who have done that. Perhaps they have announced they will no longer be using a site, which is bad enough when you have enjoyed their presence over months or years. Or they simply vanish. After years of talk, maybe someone you met on line and became friends with. Suddenly there is a hollow, a hole where they used to be. And because they are on the Internet you have no real idea in the world where they are. A couple of friends decided to leave WordPress. I used to look forward to their posts. Is it selfish to miss them?

A long term friend passed away recently. Luckily a relative posted that this had happened. Her Facebook page is still there and someone sent a message purporting to be from her. That was worrying. I don’t know why anyone would do that.

To some extent I would prefer to be ghosted than to have someone taking over my friends identity.

Saggy and baggy

Posted on March 5, 2020March 5, 2020 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Baggy, Body, Exercise, Fat, Flab, Flabby, Human, Life, Sad, Saggy, Size, Thinking, Weight2 Comments

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No one tells you as you lose weight how saggy and baggy you can get, the weight goes but your skin doesn’t shrink overnight. I have lost a lot over the last three years and now I feel like a half empty balloon! I’m flabby and I need to shrink!

I get into my clothes and everything seems to distribute evenly, but there are bulges I don’t like. Maybe I should get a corset? That’s what my mum and grandmother wore. Does anyone remember liberty bodices? I had to wear one when I was young. Thicker than a vest with clips for stockings, I think it was to get girls used to corsets. Luckily I grew out of it and got vests instead.

I know why I’m not ‘ toned,’ because my job was too sedentary, and being an artist I still do a lot of sitting down. I need more exercise.

People! Stupidity and lack of compassion.

Posted on February 24, 2020 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Bad people, Bad policies, Compassion, Hostile environment, Lack of compassion, Not in my name, Racism?, Sad, Social media, The world, Uncaring, Unfriendly, Xenophobia2 Comments

As I read social media, and the comments my friends make, I think how kind and good they are. And yet some of them are being bullied by eople in this country because they are not from here. They say things like the atmosphere has changed, and that they might leave and go back home!

This is I think part of the ‘hostile environment’ our country is perusing. Treating people like those from the Windrush generation as if they are second class citizens and deporting people only because of the colour of their skin!

Now with Covid19, it seems like they (right wing xenophobic people) have another excuse to bully incomers.

The world wasn’t split into countries by some infinite being. We are where we are mainly through luck. You don’t get to choose your place of birth.

I was bought up to think this country was caring, compassionate and fair. I don’t like the ugly way things are turning. I can say “not in my name” but can I get people to revert back to some sense? I don’t know….

Flooding

Posted on February 16, 2020February 16, 2020 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Climate, Danger, Environment, Flooding, News, Sad, Storm Dennis, Water, Weather, WetLeave a comment

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This is a local lake, but I’m using it to illustrate what has been happening this weekend as storm Dennis rages over the UK. Flooding in South Wales, Worcestershire, Yorkshire, Scotland and many other of the shires (counties). Cities, towns and countryside have all been affected. The water that fell from storm Ciara last weekend has saturated the ground and made it difficult for the water to drain. The weather has battered the mainland of Europe too.

Watching it all happen on the TV, I know its a rather small problem compared with what’s been happening in Australia with its wild fires. In East Africa where billions of locusts are affecting many countries. In South America where people are burning rain forests, in so many places on the earth where seven billion of us are causing untold damage?

The questions come, but are not always answered. I don’t know what to think. But I might have to stop writing about it. I’m depressing myself and probably everyone else….

Can you know how I feel?

Posted on February 8, 2020February 8, 2020 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Inspiration, Life, Mind, News, Poem, Poetry, Sad, Thinking, Thought, Trying, WorldLeave a comment

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Can you know how I feel?

The fog that ties me down?

The tight knots in my head,

A lack of wanting to do things.

My mind wanders away to rest.

Huddled in grey mist,

Finding solace in thought.

Do you know what I can do?

How I can break my bonds.

Feel lightened by relief?

A choice of turning in and tuning out.

Or hold tight until life returns….

Freeing me from these thoughts.

Light

Posted on February 4, 2020 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Blogging, Happy, Life, Light, Memory, Poem, Poetry, Reality, Sad, Thinking, Ups and downs4 Comments

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You light up my life,

Like a street lamp showing the way

That’s a bit glitchy

So sometimes you flicker…

Like a candle,

That gutters and flutters,

Like a bonfire,

Who’s sparks can cause explosions

Like the Sun

Which can be hidden by clouds.

But you give more light than dark,

For which I’m grateful.

Brexit.. Done

Posted on February 1, 2020 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Brexit, Britain, Damp squib, European Union, Gone, Life, lost opportunities, Sad, Stupid idea, Why?2 Comments

At 11.00pm (23.00hrs), Britain left the European Union. After a day that had been grey and drizzly, and a day I felt infinitely sad.

I did not vote for leaving the EU. But about 70% of the people in this area did, do I guess I expected rock and roll bands and masses of fireworks?

Instead we got about ten minutes loud music from the local pub, followed by a minutes fireworks at 10.58pm, then silence… A nice damp squib.

Other friends have posted statuses which sound similar. Perhaps people have become inured to it. Maybe they realise they are cutting off their noses to spite their faces….. As my hubby Sat’s, this world will go on…..

Why use ‘woke’ as an insult?

Posted on January 31, 2020January 31, 2020 Posted in UncategorizedTagged Caring, Ideas, Life, Negativity, Sad, Social media, Thinking, Woke, Work together8 Comments

” In its modern-day, politicised context, ‘woke‘ is defined by the OED as ‘originally: well-informed, up-to-date. Now chiefly: alert to racial or social discrimination and injustice’.”

I’m guilty of being ‘woke’ I guess. I try and care about things, I’ve always questioned why people can’t get on. When I was a child in the 1960’s I remember I asked why people were nasty to brown people and not pink ones?

But recently ‘woke’ seems to be being used as an insult. Like you can be too ‘woke’ to be interested in helping others? Too caring? Why? Why is it OK to tell someone off because they are too politically correct, or disagree with populist ideas? The world seems to get more selfish by the day.

I don’t think everyone should agree with me, I can agree to disagree. But what do you do when someone constantly disagrees with you? Or dismisses what you say. Even when I’d agreed to disagree a person who I’m not naming kept digging. Recently they started to call me a snowflake and woke. I said I was pleased to be a snowflake as we can gather together and turn into a blizzard! I don’t want to stop being in touch with this person as it means I’m not totally in my own bubble. But I do wonder if I should unfollow them. The world seems to lack altruism, everyone is in it for themselves, hopefully the tide will turn.

Mallaband-Brown

Tag: Sad

Three ambulances..no.. Four.

I wish I was….

Saggy and baggy

Flooding

Can you know how I feel?

Light

Brexit.. Done