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Can you know how I feel?
The fog that ties me down?
The tight knots in my head,
A lack of wanting to do things.
My mind wanders away to rest.
Huddled in grey mist,
Finding solace in thought.
Do you know what I can do?
How I can break my bonds.
Feel lightened by relief?
A choice of turning in and tuning out.
Or hold tight until life returns….
Freeing me from these thoughts.
You light up my life,
Like a street lamp showing the way
That’s a bit glitchy
So sometimes you flicker…
Like a candle,
That gutters and flutters,
Like a bonfire,
Who’s sparks can cause explosions
Like the Sun
Which can be hidden by clouds.
But you give more light than dark,
For which I’m grateful.
At 11.00pm (23.00hrs), Britain left the European Union. After a day that had been grey and drizzly, and a day I felt infinitely sad.
I did not vote for leaving the EU. But about 70% of the people in this area did, do I guess I expected rock and roll bands and masses of fireworks?
Instead we got about ten minutes loud music from the local pub, followed by a minutes fireworks at 10.58pm, then silence… A nice damp squib.
Other friends have posted statuses which sound similar. Perhaps people have become inured to it. Maybe they realise they are cutting off their noses to spite their faces….. As my hubby Sat’s, this world will go on…..
” In its modern-day, politicised context, ‘woke‘ is defined by the OED as ‘originally: well-informed, up-to-date. Now chiefly: alert to racial or social discrimination and injustice’.”
I’m guilty of being ‘woke’ I guess. I try and care about things, I’ve always questioned why people can’t get on. When I was a child in the 1960’s I remember I asked why people were nasty to brown people and not pink ones?
But recently ‘woke’ seems to be being used as an insult. Like you can be too ‘woke’ to be interested in helping others? Too caring? Why? Why is it OK to tell someone off because they are too politically correct, or disagree with populist ideas? The world seems to get more selfish by the day.
I don’t think everyone should agree with me, I can agree to disagree. But what do you do when someone constantly disagrees with you? Or dismisses what you say. Even when I’d agreed to disagree a person who I’m not naming kept digging. Recently they started to call me a snowflake and woke. I said I was pleased to be a snowflake as we can gather together and turn into a blizzard! I don’t want to stop being in touch with this person as it means I’m not totally in my own bubble. But I do wonder if I should unfollow them. The world seems to lack altruism, everyone is in it for themselves, hopefully the tide will turn.
At 11pm tonight Britain moves into the transition period of Brexit, we will still be a member of the European Union until later this year when negotiations are completed, but as far as our government is concerned we are OUT. Not all of us are happy that celebrations are taking place tonight. A crowd funding plea was started to pay £500,000 to arrange for Big Ben to ring 11 times to welcome in the change. That’s about £45,000 a bong! But it didn’t collect enough money. I wonder who gets to keep it? If the government was so keen why not pay for it themselves. Oh I forgot to say the Conservative party, who recently won the general election, is stuffed with Millionaires.
Fifty Two percent of those that voted in the Brexit referendum chose to leave. But forty eight percent said no. I’m one of them. Brexit is not in my name. I get fed up of being called a ‘remoaner’ and being told ‘get over it’. I can see how all this is affecting my European friends. I’m wondering how it will all turn out. I have also seen tea towels and mugs for sale from the Conservatives, I don’t know why they think people will buy them? Our Prime Minister keeps telling us to be optimistic. He promised and end to austerity before the election, now they have announced at least five percent cuts! They are able to do this because they have a massive majority in parliament.
So what do I think? Brexit is a massive waste of money and irrelevant. We should be concentrating on climate change, not throwing away a treaty that had lasted almost fifty years.
Perhaps if I read this in a year things will be OK, but I doubt it.
Oh let’s be Optimistic,
Let’s have a laugh
Let’s not see the real world
Let’s have a blast!
Who cares if the world burns,
If the Elephants are gone
Let’s all have a party,
I’ll bring my gun!
Now the world is hotter
I can leave my home.
Holiday so far away
Maybe go and roam.
The Antarctic is melting
Trees burnt down to the ground,
If we see a single leaf
Optimism and relief?
Think of the environment
Keep it safe, in peace.
Everything feels grey.
Pain enfold you,
sucks you in
imobilises you..
The world is small
your house is a cocoon,
hiding your body from the world.
Turning your face from the sun,
learning not to want
not to care,
not to bother,
feeling sore
feeling fed up,
being annoyed by everything.
Not knowing how to escape,
mind tied down
like Gulliver
but unable to travel,
finding no way out
in a hole
deep
lost.
Sitting in the dark,
knocked for six,
Feeling so sad,
so sad, so sad.
Never really met,
But deep inside I knew,
we would always be friends,
buddies, chums.
Artist, faithful, thoughtful,
always so kind.
Mother, aunt and wife,
carer for her family,
Matriarch and home maker,
gentle and kind.
Shocked by the news,
came out of the blue,
crying so much,
So sad, so bad.
So sad.
Farewell friend.
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Well not quite yet. But soon. Another day has drained away. I was going to do more today. It didn’t happen.
If I lived in the tropics it would be warmer and brighter. But the disadvantage is that the sun goes down about the same time every day, and day and night lengths are around the same all year round.
To be honest if I could move to the southern hemisphere for half of the year I might. I just can’t wait for summer.
Longer days, more time to fit things in. Less night and darkness.
Being honest with myself, what’s been happening in the UK has really upset and depressed me. The government has just become strongly right wing Conservative after a general election. People seemed to use it as another Brexit referendum (a vote for the UK to leave the European Union). The world keeps turning, but my country seems to be turning inward on itself. Promises were made but are already apparently being broken, where promises to support workers rights have been withdrawn.
So my depression is not internal but has external causes. If I wasn’t to bothered about what happens to people perhaps I could be blasé about it and just feel happy to celebrate the season. But I can’t help worrying about what’s going to happen in the future. I hope this mood lifts soon.
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Mallaband-Brown