Facing my fears

Six year old sketch

This came up on Facebook memories and I thought it was so close to how I’m feeling now. Jangling nerves, my heartbeat spikey, thoughts all over the place moving at a million miles a second. Suspicious of everyone. Anxiety and tiredness mixed into a morass of stress. It’s been a bad few days and I don’t know if it’s going to get better. Fingers crossed.

Artrage oils digital drawing.

Fear

I tried to draw an abstract image of fear. Everything is chaotic, your not in control, tight chest and gut. Swirling colours…

I’m not afraid of halloween or anything silly like that, but I’m scared to go out into our garden without my hubby. We have been through a series of thefts from our garden and now I can’t stop looking out of the window to check if anyone had come back. Hubby just rushed out because he saw someone on a bike like his, and I’m afraid to go into the garden incase someone is lurking, so many bad thoughts of what might happen!

Hence the drawing, a bit of self art therapy.

Sketchy blonde

When I get bored I doodle.

Usually faces either in profile or three quarter positions. But I’ve noticed they usually face left, and I thinks that because I’m right handed. I also draw cats and horses facing left too.

I think its because I’m right handed. I usually draw the edge of the face first, then the eyes and the mouth, and hair and the ear. If you draw across the page you can see what you have drawn without your hand getting in the way. I spoke to someone who is left handed and she draws faces facing right. I haven’t done any research but it would be interesting to find it hw prevalent this is….?