Using my calendar?

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I’ve not been booking anything on my calendar for a couple of months. I haven’t felt able to arrange things except for routine things. But suddenly today I’ve rung a couple of people and booked a visit on my calendar, it doesn’t sound like much, but it feels more positive. The sun is actually shining, and although I haven’t been outside I’ve opened the curtains (for a few weeks I’d kept them closed). My hubby goes out and works in the garden and I tend to sit around. I’m only really accepting that I’ve been feeling down now, after the event. But when you start to cry for no reason you know you are getting low. Reasons? Life, caring for someone, problems my relatives are having, health issues. I have felt stuck in a rut, too many responsibilities and feeling a total lack of energy. My mojo needs to come back.

I’m glad people can talk about their mental health. I think it’s a good thing. Whether I should talk about it online? I don’t know. But because I’m feeling a bit better I’m happy to share.

Dont ignore your mental health, get help if you need it. You are not alone. I can’t see inside people’s brains, but I do know they are complicated.

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Got to paint,

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This was me in 2007. I might be helping to paint a mural again soon, but I also need to paint a picture of what Spode means to me. I’m not sure what to paint as I never worked in the factory and only know it as it is, I was blogging about that a couple of days ago. Well today I went out and got a largish canvas about two feet by two and a half feet. I’m thinking of finding some old cracked paint or dusty glass, maybe a reflection. I will go and take photos tomorrow. I want to add some metallic glints to whatever I do. I need to make plans…..

Relax

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That’s all I want to do, relax and sleep. Resting and recuperating while I get over this cold. I want to go outside and do a bit of gardening but I am not up to it. I tried putting some tulips in a vase earlier and ended up tired out.

This Buddha figure is out in our garden, it will be surrounded in flowers in the summer, but looks a little subdued at this time of year.

I’ve got to plant up the hanging baskets we normally have. And I intend to have some honey suckle and clematis growing on the fence. This time of year its good to plan ahead …