Farewell

Posted on February 12, 2026 Posted in Cat, Memories, UncategorizedTagged Tuxedo cat, Tired, Sad, Gone, Loss, Black and white cat, Big cat, Rest in peace, rainbow Bridge16 Comments

Farewell Woody cat
A huge chunk of my life has just passed over the rainbow bridge and it’s such a shock. He’s been quiet and sleepy for a few days so I took him to the vets. Unfortunately he was diagnosed with end stage kidney failure and they couldn’t do anything for him.
I’m in bits. He was a quirky cat who slept on the middle steps of the stairs and endangered me every time I tried to get past him. He was a big soft giant of a cat and would put his paw out when he was lying down to say hi. I will miss him very much.

Two years (almost)

Posted on November 29, 2025November 29, 2025 Posted in Fine Art, Memories, UncategorizedTagged Death, Gone, Life, Loss, Memories, mend him, Orbit, Poem, Poetry, Sadness, Time, Two years1 Comment

If I wait a day or two

My tears will flow

Again

Two times around the sun.

Millions of miles away from me.

Energy evaporated

Thoughts dissipated

My memory is all

That holds you

A ghostly shape

3d nothingness

Grasping for you

In my sleep.

Such a robust person,

Lost and gone.

No more conversations…

Gone.

Gon

….

Tomorrow is today

Posted on October 4, 2025 Posted in Memories, UncategorizedTagged Anniversary, caving, Gone, Life, Memory, problems shared, Sadness, Thinking, Time2 Comments

On our honeymoon we went caving! Today would have been our anniversary. When I thought of writing this it was our anniversary eve but I fell asleep and only just remembered to post something….

Time flies when you’re feeling sad. It rolls along leaving you behind. I keep imagining what things would have been like if he was still alive. Being on your own means having no one to discuss problems with. Yes I’ve got friends but it’s not the same. We went through a lot together. I wish we still could.

Wet

Posted on July 24, 2025 Posted in Memories, UncategorizedTagged Abandoned, evaporated, Gone, Life, Memory, nut marking, ring, stain, Thinking, Time, WaterLeave a comment

Not a nut but the ring off the bottom of a wet glass. Water absorbed into the open unvarnished oak grain. A temporary signature that will soon dry.

Food and drink finished, I abandoned it to its quiet fate of invisibility. Evaporated, gone.

Gemini

Posted on May 1, 2025 Posted in Memories, Sketching, UncategorizedTagged Digital drawing, Doodle, Gemini, Gone, Loss, low mood, Memory, Poem, Poetry, Sadness, TwinsLeave a comment

Twin gone over two years

Memories fade away

I don’t want to miss her

I want her back

Too much loss

Fed up

I don’t know

What to do?

Digital drawing does not represent either me or my sister..

I’ll never see Cardiff

Posted on April 27, 2025 Posted in Memories, UncategorizedTagged Cardiff, Gone, Memory, Poem, Poetry, Sadness, Silence, Thinking, Time, Travel, Uwist, VisitLeave a comment

We used to dream of visiting Cardiff

The Welsh capital city

Where you went to Uwist university

But I was getting ill

I couldn’t drive there

And your anxiety held me still

We’d go next summer

Before it was too late

But we ran out of time

That was our fate

Never to see the city

Where you studies science

Now there is no visit

Only cold silence.

Empty seats

Posted on April 8, 2025 Posted in Memories, UncategorizedTagged Bar, Building, Closed, Empty, Friendly, Gone, Poem, Poetry, Sad, seats, shut loss, TimeLeave a comment

A sunny afternoon.

And the seats were out

Waiting for the sun

To come round

But they were empty

No more fun

No one to drink it in.

The bar is closed

Convivial loss

No one to stand and drink

The place is shut

So don’t walk in

To sit and sip

A cool one.

Alone

Posted on April 2, 2025 Posted in Memories, UncategorizedTagged Birthday, Empty, Gone, Grief, Hubby, Loss, Love, Memories, Poem, Poetry, Sadness, stillness, Time2 Comments

You birthday was today

But there is no voice

No laughter

No sudden shout

Of annoyance or glee.

You were here, then gone

Lost in space

Not forgotten by me

But gone from the world

We always held hands

Grasping our dreams

Let’s go out

Take a trip?

Now I stay still

Remembering but not visiting

Still waiting

For your non return.

The Leopard

Posted on January 8, 2025January 8, 2025 Posted in Fine Art, Memories, UncategorizedTagged Burslem, Gone, Memory, Murals, Public house, Sadness, Staffordshire, Stoke-on trent, The Leopard HotelLeave a comment

My friend sent me this photo (I don’t have an attribution for it). This was a few year’s ago when it was open and the Leopard Hotel was running ghost tours and serving lovely food.

Then one of the owners died and it was taken over by a family member. I don’t know what happened but I think Covid didn’t help. In the end it closed and the owner moved elsewhere. Although the frontage looked OK it needed a tremendous amount of money spending on it as it was partly derelict in the back upper floors.

The hotel stood empty for months, it was bought by an entrepreneur who may have been going to turn it into flats. Unfortunately someone got in and apparently set up a cannabis farm in it (what I heard). Then it simply burnt down. Some of the frontage may remain but the place is boarded up.

I was involved for a while because I painted the murals in the back room, the Arnold Bennett Suite. I never got decent photos in there. I do hope it can be restored.

I can’t stop saying “our”

Posted on December 7, 2024 Posted in Memories, UncategorizedTagged Anniversary, Gone, Hubby, Life, Loss, Memories, my, our, Poem, Poetry, Sadness5 Comments

Our house, our friends, our relatives.

We were together so long

I can’t say ‘my’ yet

Even after a year.

Sometimes I feel like it’s a dream.

Hubby, my hubby, will be back.

Walk into our house

Be with our friends

Our relatives.

They know

I miss him.

Mallaband-Brown

Tag: Gone