I forgot to talk about being in an art group because I was interested in what I had painted. I know that talking to people helps my mood, it’s just going that’s the problem….
I knew I needed to get some sleep but after going to bed relatively early I was awake from 4 in the morning until 9am. Then I fell asleep again so I was late getting to the group.
I am glad I went. It was a good session. I managed to work on my green woman painting. I noticed how helpful people are making suggestions and supporting each other. Sometimes I just keep my head down and just concentrate on what I’m doing. But listening today made me feel less anxious. X
If you won two free plane tickets, where would you go?
Never flown, never will. Too scared. I like insects, snakes, spiders, I don’t mind thunder and lightning.
I’m not so scared of flying I guess, just the prospect of crashing. Plus I have no control over the airplane. At least if I’m in a car, train or on a boat I could stop and get out, get off at a station, or jump overboard and swim if necessary.
But planes? No! So if I won two free plane tickets I would give them to someone who needed them, or to relatives so they could fly over and visit me. Or auction them off for charity? I don’t know.
I keep seeing adverts where you can win houses over a million pounds. But I won’t enter the draw. How would I keep a massive house warm? How to light it? How to clean it? I don’t have spare cash. Perhaps I could rent out rooms. But it’s a pipe dream. If I won I wouldn’t want it. I would give it to a charity possibly or sell it to someone else who wants it. I just need enough money to stay comfortable and manage to live on for the rest of my life. X
I keep seeing posts on Facebook about the earth being flat. So I thought for a few minutes and posted this…. . If the earth was flat the sun would set AT THE SAME TIME EVERYWHERE. There would be no time zones. New years eve would be celebrated at the same time everywhere. Clocks would all be set to the same time. If you live in a big country like America the sun would rise and set at the same time, so you wouldn’t need Eastern standard time and pacific time or whatever it’s called. THERE WOULD BE NO SEASONS, AND THE TEMPERATURE WOULD BE THE SAME ALL OVER THE WORLD. If the Earth is a globe and tipped you get seasons. If it’s a globe and not tipped, no seasons, flat earth? No seasons, no gradient in temperature. And the sun would rise and set at exactly the same time every day… Sorry rant over.
My hubby was born in the year that Welsh poet Dylan Thomas died and he was always admiring of Dylans poetry. Hubby had a wonderfully strong speaking voice, and I know there are cassette tapes somewhere in the house of him reciting Dylans poetry and short stories.
When we first met he played me “the burning baby”, a macabre story by Thomas that sent shivers down my back and raised goosebumps on my arms. It was mesmerising to listen to hubby read it, and he howled at the end with gusto. I think he should have been on the radio as a performer.
I just came in from shopping and suddenly the poem “Do not go gentle” by Dylan Thomas came into my memory. I’ve looked it up and copied it. It was read out by a friend at my hubbies celebration of his life. He had always loved it and I hope he would have been pleased that it was performed.
Do not go gentle into that good night, Old age should burn and rave at close of day; Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
Though wise men at their end know dark is right, Because their words had forked no lightning they Do not go gentle into that good night.
Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay, Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight, And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way, Do not go gentle into that good night.
Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay, Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
And you, my father, there on the sad height, Curse, bless, me now with your fierce tears, I pray. Do not go gentle into that good night. Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
If you can, try and listen to a recording of Dylan Thomas reading it. X
People aren’t around, and if they were I don’t want to bother them. Some memories have been arriving on my Facebook page and I remembered what fun I was having ten years ago. People were there then, a group who worked together. Work was OK, life was satisfying.
Now? I feel shattered, broken, I’ve caught myself crying a few times. I’ve got things planned for later on, so I hope I’ll be OK. Life is up and down at the moment. I’m sharing this here because it’s better to get things off your chest. I need to unstick myself and stop thinking about things. But worries assert themselves.
This was triggered by adverts for funeral plans and wills on the TV and seeing seven or eight police cars and an ambulance up the hill last night. What happened? Are people OK? Nothing in the news, but anxiety bites again.
Why should I share this information? Can I trust the person who is asking? Or the people who are reading this blog?… Sometimes we share too much information. It’s too easy to trust everyone on the Internet. And yet I wouldn’t tell people in the street my life story, my insurance details, if I’ve ever been in hospital. True I do share some information but as far as I can tell it’s of little use to others. I appreciate that it’s good to talk about your life, but I think you shouldn’t go too far.
Someone will be out there looking at your details putting two and two together, finding out about me. Well I’d rather not be too informative, I don’t think it’s a good idea.
I think something is looking over me. Maybe an angel? I have thought about spiritual things and I think there might be something there, but I don’t know what? I would characterise myself as agnostic rather than an atheist. The universe is too big and complex to find an answer and I think we are arrogant to assume we know the truth of things. Better to follow the guidelines and try and keep to rules that help you lead a good life.
I guess I’m one of those people that are hedging their bets. Rather than completly dismissing religion I try and keep an open mind. I think we need to love each other and care for others as we would care for ourselves. It’s not hard to do. Anyway it’s what I think….