Life!

Do you need a break? From what?

Take a break…. Lunch? No

What then?

Less stress, more rest….

But things keep going on

Coming at me

Bashing my mind

Thumping. My. Body

Some of it my own fault

But lost without my soulmate.

Tired and alone

Just want to stop the world

And get off

Leave the trolls behind

Hibernate, hide from. Life.

Not giving up

Just relaxing.

Everything!

Do you need a break? From what?

For those that follow my blog you will know I’ve been going through a couple of bad years. I really want things to stop going wrong. I feel like the universe is jumping up and down on my head. I’d like a break. That’s just a few days where I can relax and recover.

Holidays, that’s a word I don’t think I will hear in the future. I have ‘leisure time’ but that’s just sitting being bored because I don’t have anything I can do or want to do. I’ve spent years looking after someone and I’d love to have that responsibility back. The silence is deep sometimes. Thinking is not a ‘break’. We would talk and chat, breaking that silence with serious thoughts or silly humour. I could always make him laugh.. There is no laughter now.