Alone

Always by my side. Now I’m a widow. What a weird word. My fate was to be left behind. Yours was to leave first.

The cats keep looking for you. The house is quiet. No explosions of humour and excitement. Just full but empty. Echoing with your life. Your things are everywhere. Your books, your clothes, shoes, things. What do I do?

Lots of support, I’m organising and tidying. Getting advice. Looking for help. Trying to stay calm. Alert about my body, my health.

Time will pass, I will seek support, I must try and go on. Enough sadness for a whole lifetime has poured like molten metal into my heart, burning and breaking. But I must go on.

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11 thoughts on “Alone”

      1. It will always hurt. But over time there are some beautiful things that come out of it that we could never have expected. I can’t explain that, but I have experienced it as have many others. The big thing is that we had the opportunity to love someone. But it takes a long time and it’s OK. It has to be that way because this is NOT a trivial experience. It’s a life-changing experience.

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