Before my arm started shaking I was doing paintings like this. (for the last year and a half or so my left arm has been gradually getting worse with increased shaking ) Then I had to see the doctor and mentioned the problem. He said it was above his pay grade! I am waiting for tests. The thing is that art and particularly painting mean everything to me. I don’t know if lockdowns have knocked my confidence? Plus illness gets to you. Making it more difficult to complete work. I’ve got myself into a situation where I will do quick pictures and sketches, but I feel nervous of doing anything more substantial. I don’t usually talk about how I feel mentally, but I’m feeling down today. I will probably be OK tomorrow?
Mallaband-Brown 
You need to read the Alexandrian Quartet by Laurence Durrell, specifically the last book, Clea.
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I will have to find it. I used to read Gerald Durrell books like ‘my family and other animals’ where he mentioned his brother Lawrence was a writer.
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Laurence Durrell is pretty unusual, at least in my experience, but I loved those books. Clea has a message for an artist that I have never forgotten, but you have to read the first three to fully get it..
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Checked it out on Wikipedia, might get them
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