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It’s late and I’m waiting for a TV show to start on another channel. I was typing here and started listening to a gambling programme. Why are they even allowed on TV.

So I’m randomly calling out numbers and colours while typing this. And I got one exactly right and a few of the colours right. But I wouldn’t play games like this, what a way to waste your money! It’s frightening how many people can get hooked! I worry about people who lose their homes or their families. And also think about the companies who make billions out of their ‘customers’. The game on at the moment is roulette but they are also promoting slots. The music in the background is like a beating heart. It’s taken me by surprise as I’ve never watched a casino programme before. I can say- never again!

Awake

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Like a napping cat staring bleary eyed into the dawn, I’m awake. I don’t want to be. There is a slight chill in the living room and I’m thinking of snuggling back in bed. To sleep, to not worry about today, who will come to my show? Are enough people interested?

Nerves, that’s what it is. The anxiety in the pit of your stomach. Collywobbles, butterflies, slight palpatations.

Nothing to worry about, I tell myself. Worrying never got anything done, I think. Life’s too short, I mutter under my breath.

So decisions, another decaff coffee or sleep, I know what I will do…..