If only? What if? I’m feeling so guilty. Why didn’t I spot there was a problem earlier? All those months of things that were not quite right, we should have gone to the doctors. I should have insisted. Have I neglected you? When I argued with you to go it was only towards the end? Should I blame myself, I can’t blame you.
Was it bad communication? Fear? Not wanting to see what might be wrong? I don’t know, I just feel bad. I need a little rant to try and clear my head. I can’t stop time, or make it go back, I wish I could, what twists or turns would I reverse to have you back? No pact with a deity can change things now. Forever.
Mallaband-Brown 
Just want to send you a big hug Christine. So very sorry for your loss. Hope these feelings and thoughts will soon give way to remembering happier moments you have shared over the years. Ronnie X
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I hope so. I’m trying to keep occupied x thank you
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🤗 ❤
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Guilt is a normal feeling in the situation you are living through right now. I think a good way to deal with it might be to respect the person you and he were and appreciate that you made the best decisions you could at the time. Then forgive yourself. Someone said (wisely) “Forgiveness is accepting that we don’t have the power to change the past.” It’s really hard, though, and it hurts. ❤️
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That’s a really helpful way of looking at it. Thank you my dear friend x
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❤️ Big hug, Chris.
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Back at you x🤗
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