I’m not going to choir practice yet. I just don’t feel up to it. Singing is such an emotional thing. I just know if I go I will want to cry. I can’t face that yet. When I go back I want to be calm and a lot less stressed. Everything is so painful in my mind and in my body. I maybe should not share these feelings, but sometimes it’s better to say something. I don’t have the energy to worry about anyone else at the moment, and that makes me feel guilty.
To anyone else going through loss, I’d like to send my deepest sympathies, I can’t feel the same way as they do, but I do care.
Mallaband-Brown 
It’s OK, Chris. At my dad’s funeral, my mom yelled at me for crying. My grandma took me back to the car and we cried together. I managed to move on from that death that shook me to the core. My mom never did. I know our relationships to my dad were different, but I believe feeling our feelings — and venting them in tears and talk — helps us heal.
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Yes, I agree! How horrible to tell you not to cry. A ‘stiff upper lip’ is not what’s needed xx
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Absolutely not. I think there’s a time and a place for the stiff upper lip, but that wasn’t it and where you are isn’t it. ❤
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💕❤️
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