Art competition

Write about a time when you didn’t take action but wish you had. What would you do differently?

So many times I have missed deadlines for art competitions. I somehow freeze and lose confidence.

I think it stems from a college tutor who told me I would do badly and not get a good degree. I believed him and when I was successful I still questioned my validity. I come from a working class home and I didn’t have the self confidence to dismiss his opinion. I took three years to get over it and forever after I have felt some degree of imposter syndrome. I was once asked as l local artist to judge an art competition. It was so hard, I didn’t know what to do, whether I would disappoint people. The result was announced and I think people were pleased with my choice, but I felt great guilt!

It’s hard to think that those few words my tutor spoke forty years ago, sank deep into my heart. What would I be doing if I hadn’t listened to his poisoned words. I wish I knew then what I do now.

7 thoughts on “Art competition

  1. I understand that perfectly. My high school art teacher told me to just get out of the art room because I was taking space from someone else who might have talent. He added that I didn’t have any talent. Strangely, it didn’t discourage me and I kept going to the art room, I don’t know why. It happened again in college. My sculpture teacher said the same thing. Now I just think they were assholes. What difference did it make to them if my work is good or bad? None. It’s my work and they can go fuck themselves.

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